Well, I may be fired in the end, but I'm being given a second chance.
I just want as many Aspies as possible to know my story, because I think it may be useful. Mostly to Aspies who, like me, live in a country where AS is not only legal to discriminate against, but also unheard of.
Two months ago I got the news from a most reliable source that my boss was head hunting to replace me. I told him what I'd heard, he denied it of course.
It took me a lot of time and courage but, having been fired so many times, I figured I had nothing to lose. And I just couldn't bear the thought of leaving a company and job I adore and have given my life to. So I went to HR and told them that I'm terrible at understanding what my boss wants from me when it's not verbalized. I didn't mention any disorder names, didn't hint at a brain disorder (I probably would've been sacked on the spot if I had). I asked for help and said I'm willing to try ANYTHING that is in my power to try in order to keep my job. I emphasized how hard I've worked and how much I love the comnpany and the job. I said I'm very open to criticism about how I'm conducting myself. They promised to try and convince my boss to give me a second chance.
Ever since, my boss has been telling me verbally what he doesn't like in my behavior and we're really-really trying to make it work. It's funny, painful, frustrating and embarrassing to be told these things, like I'm sitting in a way that is not how everyone else is sitting and I'm giving the wrong impression to the group and stuff like that. But when I said I was willing to do ANYTHING, I wasn't lying.
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So-called white lies are like fake jewelry. Adorn yourself with them if you must, but expect to look cheap to a connoisseur.