Every school holidays I just sit at home on the computer and play video games all day every day. This is repetitive and it gets boring fast. Then I see people from my school doing things on facebook and it makes me feel really depressed. I cant really hang out with people room my school because of my social anxiety issues (and i don't know how to go about asking them). being in my room for weeks on end makes me feel angry and suicidal. I cant stand being around my family because they irritate me even more. I want to hangout with people from my school etc. I need to actually interact with people these school holidays and do something productive (I always need to have things to do because when i am bored it makes me feel like self harming even more). I want to be able to go out,interact with people and have fun like everyone else my age. I really don't want to feel the same way as i do every other school holiday season (bored,depressed,suicidal,irriatable,angry). what should I do? I just want a group of friends that I can do things with on the school holidays?