My life and what I choose to do with it!

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My life is... difficult to fully explain to NT’s who think the world revolves around them and that they know everything about Autism when they don’t...
Do they have friends who have Autism or a similar disability? Or a relative?
As I just explained my life is difficult to explain to NT’s but... I will tell it...
Here are some things that I find hard to cope and/or deal with:

1/ I feel like my body is a shell for some... entity that just inhabits its new “home” and just try’s to do with my life as it sees fit, but... I still hold the upper hand for it is still MY body and MY life and I can steer the wheel of the car in many directions and let the entity think it is doing all the hard work — that is just my explanation...
All I am doing is trying to win back my self...

But there are things that are less “farfetched” for me to be worried about...
“Control” is something that is more “idealised” by people who think they are smarter than you:
1/ I have a new idea for a TV series that nobody wants to help me with... even though I tried asking the BBC if they’d be so kind as to send someone over to me to discuss my options and look at my written work... but they will never listen to me even though I tell them of my Autism...
I do not wish that to get in the way every time I ask for help because then they start to treat me as a helpless child who can’t find his/her favourite toy...
They believe I am exactly that... a helpless child...

2/ And also I know that publishers still “hold” the rights to decide what the inside of a book should look like... For example: The fonts in books are just sooo boring... didn’t you ever notice?
I believe the right to decide what is best for a novel to look like should be left solely for the AUTHOR TO DECIDE!! !
They expect you to stick to plain, boring fonts like: Arial, Times New Roman (both are used mainly for novels, short stories and poems, and newspapers), Courier, Courier New (both have been used mostly in scriptworks)
But for someone with Autism who is writing a fantasy novel, like myself, will find it hard to persuade the publishers to change the font to one that YOU, the author, would like to have going throughout the series of novels that you are writing...

3/ People try to dissuade me from just about anything these days... this is only so that they can be satisfied with the fact they think I can be “controlled” by them. But they seem to have left out the one FACT that I know: You cannot tell a person who has Autism what they can and/or cannot do... for that is just impossible...
People with Autism cannot be controlled in that way... NT’s need to understand that we have as much right, as they do, to be ASKED to do what is necessary... unless we know it is wrong... then we hold the winning cards in our hands...
The only person who can tell you how your life should be run is yourself!

4/ Just because I believe in the stuff that you read about in novels or watch in fantasy movies NT’s think I have a serious problem with society but I have a mind that can think for itself...
And when they tell me that Vampyr and Elves do not exist - when I say Vampyr I do not mean the stereotyped versions of the distorted minds of Christian/Victorian men and women - I will not listen I will only argue my points across in the Great Oceans of Time...
Because the Ocean is endless and forms into endless streams and creates mass pools and gigantic Waterfalls of Good Points!! !

5/ Toys... this is something that I always wanted to ask other people with Autism: Do you talk to them? I know that NT’s will see that it is just sad thing to be ask-worthy, but... I must confess that I do talk to them...
You’d be asking me why? It is simple... it is because I never want to grow old and leave my childhood behind for someone else to experience... and also because it makes me feel happy and others want me to be happy, right? so... it is only fair that I am allowed to talk to my toys in my own time and space!! !

mmm, another rant. Hope that blowing off some steam has made you feel better; sometimes it's good to just get your thoughts into words. It doesn't seem to me like you were being discriminated against based on Autism. That's just life.

Well my point is just that you have to change the things you can't accept, but also accept the things you can't change. No use worrying over what can't be changed :D If you can change it, then change it. But if you can't, then don't waste time worrying about it :D life is not meant to be perfect :D that said, I hope you find your happies again, and have a wonderful Monday. :D

To be honest, there was only one unfair generalization that I observed in the entire thread, and it was this one:

Deadboy365,

The UK does do a LOT of stupid shows and, as I recall, some of them ARE BBC. BTW Sorry if that sounds insulting. I know they do a lot of GOOD shows also, but still. Still, they can't do EVERYTHING, and won't respond to everyone. Don't fault them if they don't like your idea.

ALSO, any SMART company may not even look over your idea without an agreement. In the US, companies have gotten SUED by idiots that see similarities between their turned down scripts and movies.

As for the type in the books, they have their own way of doing things. SOME publishers want FULL control, like you ask, and they end up doing it THEMSELVES!

I don't talk to anything like that. I can understand why you would like to remain young, etc... I am trying to get SOME of that back. I don't recall ever talking to my toys though. In some ways when I was young, I seemed pretty normal with play, etc... In some ways I was anything but.

Don't take the font thing so personally. There are perfectly good reasons why fonts are regulated. Here, I'll list a few:

1) Fonts have to fit a certain set of criteria. They have to be easy to read, for people of all ability. They need to be easily recognizable. They need to be enlarged easily. Ideally, they should be able to be read by text-readers that blind/visually impaired persons may use. So, in a nutshell, fonts used must be ACCESSIBLE.

2) Fonts must be readable by all publishing/reviewing software. Manuscripts are stored in data form. They are edited, changed, and stored to be passed around. Even after publication, it's important to keep the published (hard copy) and electronic copies as identical as possible to aid with queries.

3) Regulated fonts prevent people from using really silly unreadable fonts. It prevents there from being unnecessary and time-wasting arguments over whether a font is clear enough or not.

4) Fonts are chosen that conserve ink and make the best use of the page.

Rules are in place for good reason. Try not to take them as a personal affront.

I'd also like to add that it takes a lot more than just a letter or phone call to convince one of the largest broadcasting companies to "send someone over" to discuss an idea. Think how many millions of people write in with 'ideas' every day... they simply don't have the time and resources to follow up every single inquiry.

If you really want to get involved, you have to start small. Start with small publishing firms, and with getting together an online portfolio, making home-made films etc, and consider studying a media-related subject at college/university. It won't fall into your lap just by asking for it. You have to go out and get it.

Autism isn't your problem here... don't use it as a scapegoat or an excuse. These things are difficult to achieve even for 'regular' folk.

There are ways in which to express yourself in which you have full control.

1/As far as the series goes, you will need to prove to them there is a demand and it would be popular... get a digital camcorder if you don't have one already, self produce the show on a shoe string budget, and put it up on youtube in the form of webisodes... if you can get enough views, then you have something to show them so they will take you seriously.

2/Instead of going through a publisher, you might try to self publish your books. They will print them just as you send them, errors and all. So be sure to proofread carefully and get someone else to do so as well, as most ppl NT and AS tend to overlook their own errors. LuLu is one company that does print on demand for self published books.

3/You are absolutely right about that. The only way to force one of us to comply with something we don't agree with is by force, and then you can bet we will undermine the operation to the best of our ability. Or maybe that's just me.

4/Everyone lives in their own subjective reality... some choose to ignore that to conform to what they perceive to be objective reality, but that is only their subjective interpretation of those portions of a plurality of individual subjective realities upon which there appears to be some agreement... and usually with quite limited results. Hence, for one example, the hundreds of denominations present in any given organized religion.

5/Never give that up, man. Growing up is vastly overrated.