Intrusive thoughts

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This thred especially applies to deep-thinkers,
a few months ago I started going to this youth group, I dated one of the guys there, had a small row with another and caused some bad vibes towards others there, I was shy and was very much withdrawn but I felt they didn't make an effort to make me feel comfortable because they were all wrapped up in there own little gang whilst us newbies would be left out without them striking up a conversation with us.
On top of that I have always been a stressed person and thought 'What if I said or did that, then things would have turned out differently, I might have got on with that person etc.
It doesn't seem like a big deal but I always go over the little things and then it started getting out of control, I would make up arguments or conversations in my head so that I could feel better (abit like letting off steam to a counsellor).
I searched up 'conversations in my head' and I found that I wasn't the only person suffering, it's apparently casued by high levels of stress and things you have wanted to say but didnt etc.

Everybody thinks "Why did I do that?" or "If I didn't say that then we would still be friends" but mine has gotten out of control and I now have meaningless conversatiosn going on my head near enough 24/7.

I felt abit crazy creating this thread but I know there's more people who suffer with these kinds of things, especially people with Asperger's,

Anybody wanna share stories etc.?

thanks,
Jake

I haven't much to say that helps, but I have that problem. I have found it is so bad that I now avoid eye contact and conversation in order to reduce the echoes. I know it to be unhealthy to withdraw. I've just never learned how to be at peace with what others think of me, so that my mental health was threatened by the incessant strain of misunderstanding. I got sick of people getting it wrong no matter what you said. People will always assume what they what or apply what they understand to what you say, usually interpreting things completely wrong. And they say we can't read people. As if they understand one another any better.

i do this with being afarid that i will drive into oncoming traffic or randomly stab people. i never do, usually, but i constantly think about it and cannot stop. sometimes i actually do act on my thoughts such as hitting things in my car, (i dont drive anymore), breaking things of value, and once stabbed myself in the hand and had to go to the hospital.

Wow, it happens to y'all too, eh? That's a relief to me...I thought I was just going crazy.
I always sit and try to rationalize and analyze events and actions which include me. They can sometimes be overwhelming seeing as the thoughts are just pouring in at a rapid pace, with one. This is when my stimming starts to really show itself. Knowing when these thoughts begin to become overwhelming, my logical side kicks in and looks for a way to stop - listening to music (Mozart), talking on the phone, watching t.v., or playing WoW, as well as eating a piece of chocolate or so.
I sometimes think bad thoughts as well, but I know for a fact though that they are wrong and I could never do those (which I could enact) to anyone. A bad thought I always have is - I can imagine this jerk who's cutting these people off speeding like an idiot being reduced to pulp from a car crash. Another: "If Hannibal Lecter was real, he'd be having a field day (all the rude people in my area)" Another thought I have sometimes is: "What would happen if I was at a party, and there was some person who was just an a---hole that thought I he could do whatever he wanted, and since I am being sober, I have the power...could I take him for a ride & just drop him off inside a CVS like 10 miles away, or could I take his car keys, and bury the keys out in the yard?"

I have something like intrusive thoughts. I have something known as thought insertion. The difference between the two is that intrusive thoughts you realize they are coming from within your head. where as thought insertion comes from outside your head from a different source like the government or aliens in my case. Intrusive thoughts are generally related to anxiety or OCD but thought insertion is usually psychotic based.