Do you ever feel like this?...

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Have you ever been so overwhelemed by thoughts that you literally cannot think and can't move, you're brain cannot dela with it all or had dark thoughts about torturing/murdering?

I never would but I do have those thoughts at times.

Only when I was having a heart attack. It was WAY beyond scary, to the point that I couldn't think - only perceive.

Yes. I have. When I was younger, the dark thoughts and torture flicks, were the only way I knew to process the offending feelings and actions of others. Many years of hard work, led me to be able to reside in a much easier and peaceful place of self clarity.

It was temporily difficult. It can be very hard to understand foulness, without actually going foul myself. I was able to build a basis of understanding though. Now I do well and recognize when someone is inappropriate, without me having to go into their level of thinking, to process that understanding.

Take care

Yes. I've dealt with such intrusive, persistent thoughts before.

Every once in a while I'll have an un-called-for bout of violent or crude thoughts, almost always when I'm around other people. Like one time back in high school, I was sitting in an auditorium watching a show. It was crowded, I was feeling anxious. Then all of a sudden, I began to visualize the brutal murder and desecration of the people sitting around me. Really horrifying stuff that had no immediate basis or cause. I had not been watching horror movies, or seen or heard anything scary or violent in the recent past. And it was very difficult to stop these thoughts or concentrate on anything else. That lack of control was probably the worst part...

More often, I just have cycles of unpleasant or mundane thoughts... phrases from conversations, visualizations of my own actions held to scrutiny, repeated over and over for no good reason.
It's taken a lot of work to not get trapped in these cycles when I see them happening. Better now than it used to be.

Yes.