In between worlds

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I'm in between worlds.

Neither Aspie nor NT.

Feels a bit weird really



Sorry, I just suddenly had the odd feeling that I was inbetween worlds. If this makes no sense, please ignore - it was merely a short feeling I had.

Doesn't matter to me; you're a very nice, interesting person and that's all I care about right now.

My results in the Aspie test say that I'm the same amount of NT and Aspie, whatever that means...

Doesn't sound like this is what you're talking about, but I don't feel like I am really existing in this world today. I wonder if I appear insubstantial to others.

I often feel like I am in my own world, but needing to come out of my bubble and be a part of the greater world around me.

'In between worlds'?

What if your world is a part of the bigger world, just you don't know it? Wouldn't that be an even stranger feeling?

Honestly, autistic people have the same world, they just experience it differently.

I understand completely. I feel the same way. I feel I am not aspie enough and I feel I am not NT enough. It's like I am in between so I say I'm borderline. My mother says I am anyway.

I just don't relate to lot of aspies because they have bigger issues than me or more, or more problems in their life. And there are problems that aspies still have I outgrew such as not following rules because they are illogical or the person wouldn't explain to them why.

I'm on Earth

I truly believe i'm in a category all by myself. I don't fit anywhere....I only have a few things in common with other Aspies/NLD-ers and that's it.

I don't say this out of some disingenous desire to portray myself as some "mysterious stranger from the east". That seems to be pretty common in our hyper-narcisstic society today. Everyone wants to be a legend in their own mind and everyone else's. There are plenty of TRULY legendary people out there and i'd say there's a disproportionate number among the AS/NLD/ASD community. Believe me...my own differences cause me nothing but agony and I would do anything to be unoriginal-yet-functional.


Oh...and kindly allow me to define what is functional FOR MYSELF and what is not.

I never thought of myself as aspie, I even heard an NPR radio show about them, and was like "I'm glad I'm not like THOSE people". But after learning all about aspergers, I noticed that everything I do is aspie-like. Except without visible meltdowns.