northern_light_girl wrote:
Do you get bored easily? As in TOO easily and become depressed if you don't have daily excitement? As in "I can't do my job b/c it's monotonous" and so you feel more and more depressed?
No. I don't get bored easily. I am amused/fascinated/entranced by common things, and I could spend all day in my own thoughts, doing absolutely nothing. Boredom is not even on my radar. I actually spend a good portion of my time trying to AVOID daily excitement. Most of the time I am anxious, easily flustered, slightly paranoid... and sometimes the slightest upset may cause me to meltdown. I SEEK OUT monotonous activities sometimes. The mechanical repetition of certain things is calming and reassuring to me. Almost zen-like.
I get overwhelmed and depressed if I am trapped in an exciting or unpredictable environment for too long.
northern_light_girl wrote:
Also, do you ever feel you're having trouble with identifying your aim in life?
YES. I have felt this way for the last 15 years or so. I am just now starting to identify my aim in life. The problem is, I am very far removed from having the means to achieve it... directly because of the past years of aimless wandering and the effects it has had.
My current aim in life is to reconcile how AS fits in with it, and pursue a career that closely matches my interests. I've been told for too long that my interests weren't viable career paths, and that I should force myself into some "real-job".... That got me nowhere. It actually sent me backwards considerably. I am finally starting to listen to myself.
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