northern_light_girl wrote:
I've read a few posts here. People say they hate to socialize but they can even feel depressed if they don't do it.
Ok, so how can 2 different NEEDS like the one to be left alone and the one to socialize be explained? What do you mean by wanting to socialize..how would you define what you're looking for? Is it from a need not to be an outkast and be seen as a normal memeber of society or is it a real need for compansionship?
I was onc invited to a group. They were nice, clean, etc... but uninhibited. Heck, they once had a food fight. In a way, it was neat. Two women I LIKED had certain likes that I learned about, and I would have been QUICK to use that info if not for the fact that I thought they were too young to me. Still, it was neat. Heck, they had so much joy at times that it kind of swept over ME! It is hard to explain, but I think I must have really felt like they did. It was almost like I was empathic, like some on star trek. If I could live in that moment, and perhaps even marry and live with such a woman, I would be HAPPY! SO, in a way, I WANT to socialize!
Alas, such things are RARE!! !! !! !! ! I think it has happened maybe 5 times out of hundreds that I have been in such an event. Usually, I end up being DISGUSTED. I end up being just alone.