Sometimes I feel.... asexual

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I've tried to explain this to friends at various times & they never believe me, becuz of how I look/dress and talk. Sex is one of my special interests, particularly sexual violence, deviancy, and sexuality in general. I find it fascinating. But sex in and of it self... I can take it or leave... most times I am completely ambivalent and go along becuz I know it is... expected of me, but sex is.... not arousing. I cant even think of actual intercourse as sex, it feels very remote. There is something far... "sexier" in a good kiss. I was thinking last night, that I go along with sex becuz it gives me the freedom to get what I really want, which is texture/sensory input. As a teen, there was a boy I would meet at lunch every day, we would never talk, but I would spend the entire time finger combing his hair. I love the way hair feels, all kinds lengths textures, but as an adult I know... there are... expectations if you play with someones hair. I like to rub my legs firmly against some one else, but the problem is the same.

I like a lot of the things that go along with relationships, hugging, kissing, companionship, but I get more (sexual) satisfaction from listening to music, dancing, looking at lights, tasting certain textures. I dont even know the words to explain this to NT people. Sometimes I get really mad after having sex & I cant even explain why, except that everything feels wrong....

Meh, today is a day for wierd thoughts. Does anyone else ever feel like this?

I think it is fairly common. For me the 'act' means almost nothing as it's courting and the fore and after play that is my special interest. I think you find a lot of this in our community.

i totally relate, i usually get turned off by people who go straight for the sex part.. i prefer touching and cuddling like snakes.. touching someones body and being touched is very sexual for me.. kissing and tasting the other person is very nice...

i have a problem with this being a guy and all, as sometimes i get turned on by the scene (while out clubbing/dancing) and then when we get into bed i am not turned on by this person.. this has created some issues as one might think... i now feel like its impossible for me to meet a girl whom i get really turned on by....

in the past i have just done what i think girls except in a sexual situation, but now i have decided that i should let my freaky nature show...just need a test subject

What if it ends up that you don't have AS. Will this change you're perception of the situation?

I wish I was asexual. Then I could keep my head (you know which one) on straight.

Yeah I'm a bit asexual. I go through stages of dressing like a girl (currently wearing a dress) and then other times I'm more comfy in something very boyish. As for actual sex, yeah I daydream about it but don't have the overwhelming desire to actually go out and get some. I tend to be attracted to androgynous people as well.

What's wrong with asexuality, what's wrong with bisexuality either? I know what I am, and it is a bit different from most people, but ultimatly I am straight. I have no problem with people of alternate sexualities. I think more people should be less sexual in nature, some people's sex drive is just way too strong. Asexuality is just the exact opposite, they have less sex drive, and sex drive can be a dangerous thing. If people let sex cloud there judgement, they will do things they will likely regret.

Just do whatever you're comfortable with.