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whitetiger wrote:
I'm actually very sad about this. The report painted me as really pathetic. I felt like I'd wasted my life with illusions.
The good news is that now I will get help with things and better benefits, though. That's what I most need.
But, tonight I still feel sad about the report and sad about my cat.
Take heart whitetiger.
I feel very similarly to you at present. YOu are not pathetic but you do have AS and that means there are things you struggle with. Some days i find the logistics of life skills so overhwelming. getting showered and making the bed, doing a washing up and then cooking a meal (the latter is HELL some days for me) is SO hard. GOing to the shops can be like a frigging horror show because of sensory issues and these in turn impact on my capacity to get through basic tasks.
I went to see my psych this week. I asked him "do you think i may have ADHD as well?' I can rarely keep still. I cannot stand still. I stim almost continuously and it is really hard> i rock. i toe walk in bare feet and i cannot stand in a queue without pacing and moving back and forth on my feet like a flip. That is how it feels.
My psych said "yes. it's quite likely you have ADHD as well."
i've known this for a while - or suspected it anyway.
but the process of accepting certain factors about ourselves if we get dx'ed later in life can be REALLY painful.
up until last year i lived in a kind of fantasy that one day i would miraculously OVERCOME AND CONQUER certain deficits.
these days i know that is not the case.
I love who i am. I don't want to change who i am.
But the acceptance of certain realities, unencumbered, and not embellished by hopeful fantasies can be difficult.
Good luck> i am so glad you are on WP.
and may peace be with you and your cat in cat heaven.