itsallrosie wrote:
The most frustrating thing for me is not knowing for sure. When I tell people they always tell me I'm wrong. I find people are keen to criticise me in relation to my lack of organisation, my inability to cook or do anything practical, my monologuing and always turning the conversation to my current obsession, and they will call me a know-it-all behind my back. But it can't be anything to do with being autistic, I'm just not trying hard enough. Besides, they say, everyone stims. Everyone has problem areas. Most people forget names and faces. According to them (mostly family) I'm just too shy and anxious and need to get over it.
I'd just like to shut them up, to put it bluntly. They probably wouldn't believe it then.
I do read on forums where people celebrate their diagnosis anniversary and many feel so relieved to at last KNOW.
This is one of the reasons I have been very reluctant to tell my family and/or friends about my self-diagnosis of Asperger's. Also for health insurance reasons, I have decided not to make my diagnosis "official" - ASDs are not covered where I'm at. But I do feel a sense of relief in knowing for myself what's been going on.
Another thing to consider - a lot of people are still wrapping their heads around the idea of Autism being a spectrum disorder. Heck, I didn't even know what AS was until a couple of years ago. Come to find out it wasn't even a diagnosible condition until I was in college (the first time.)
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