Yes. I often don't feel the flow of a social exchange. I notice it , and sort of get it... but internally I refuse to acknowledge it. Sometimes these moments go on for way to long, and I get almost annoyed that they keep on going. So I just 'switch off' and ignore them...
It often seems that most social things are pulled just by their own energy of the participants, and not due to any worth. Like I've seen people laugh at a joke that really wasn't funny, just because the person saying the joke laughed at it themselves and kind of forced it onto others...
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Wonder what it feels like to be in love?
How would you describe it, like a push or shove?
Guess I could pretend that this is all I need
Wanting more than what I have might appear as greed.