Pugly wrote:
Especially about terrible events and how it relates to God. And some of the nature/science and God questions...
Yeah. The test-maker obviously regarded
theodicy as a major issue. For me, the question of evil in the world was never evidence for or against faith in a higher power. I think people who are turned on or off to faith based on this one subject lack imagination. My true answers on a number of questions were not listed among the responses and I had to choose the next best option.
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Gwen, even when you were Catholic did you not have doubts? I'm kind of confused when you say "I never dabble"... how can one go all the way when you aren't 100% sure about what you are going into?
Yes, I had huge doubts. But in the Christian framework, doubts are accounted for as a routine and necessary component of the idea of faith as an act of the will.
What I didn't dabble in was the practice of my faith. I could not be certain whether the basis of my faith was or was not real, but the teachings were crystal clear regarding lukewarmness. It would be pointless to decide that I liked abc but not xyz. It would be like trying to marry half of a person when you don't like the other half. "Yes, darling, I love you, but only if you will you shave your head, study medicine, join the communist party, become a vegan, and stop reading comic books." I suppose those who invent their own faith (or obsessively control their lovers
) are fulfilling a deep psychological need, but such a practice is self-contradictory and too obviously illogical for my mind to embrace.
Any given piece of information may or may not be true, but if I
fabricate it spontaneously, molding it around my own wishes... well, based on all known rules of the universe it has a nearly 100% chance of being false.
I have quite a lot of patience for a lot of things, but I have very little for those who want to make Jesus or any other religious figure or text comply with their own notions of what the world ought to be like. It's intellectual dishonesty to toss out the parts of the Bible that one doesn't like and call the resulting Frankenreligion "Christianity". They should just admit they don't like the Church and get the hell out of it, but I reckon they're afraid of the idea of a godless world and so need to insulate themselves with feel-good stories.
As for me, I'd rather take a long, lonesome, terrifying look into the void, if that's what reality appears to point toward... than to embrace anything conveniently comforting, but unreal. The only reason I ever liked Catholicism is that I wanted Truth and I hoped it could be found and explained so easily and explicitly. Truth alone is my ideal and my "god".
What I grapple with now is the fact that insulatory distractions or intoxications of one kind or another appear to be man's only incentive to live. Pain and suffering seem somehow more "real" and "true" than their opposites. Look up "intoxication" in the thesaurus and you will see that the antonyms are gloominess, depression, misery, melancholy... "knurd", as Quatermass quoted Pratchett.
Our happiness is at the mercy of the ebb and flow of neurotranmitters, yet we've somehow evolved with the unfortunate dissatisfaction in being creatures of this ilk!
Is there any new way out of this conundrum? Might I find my answers in the metaphysics of quality? In the elevation of Truth to godhead? Are such philosophical constructs merely another attempt to bend the universe to my own liking, which is the very thing I so despise seeing in others?
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The machine does not isolate man from the great problems of nature but plunges him more deeply into them. -Antoine de Saint Exupéry
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