Do you feel like you're still a child?

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When I gown down some stairs I love to jump down the last 3-4 steps. I've been doing this since I was a child I guess.

I love red, blue and yellow ground colours like the colours on babies' toys. I even try to decorate my apartment with such colours (white walls, some red pillows in the sofa, a green chair, an orange chair) because it makes me happy. I like to have disney characters on my bed clothes, and I like cartoons and comics.

I don't regard myself immature, but aesthetically I really fancy some stuff that is for children.

It's not the full image of me though.

Very much so.

Even when I am around many of my peers and friends, I still feel like a small child sitting with grown ups. I tend to stay quiet and only speak when spoken to, while either occupying my hands with something kind of distracting or focusing on the conversation without contributing anything to it.

I have to observe and question everything constantly like a child.

Some other ancient Aspie once said "the unobserved life is not worth living".

Some people, as they get older, become more presumptuous, because they have "life experience" and can easily "work out" situations. It worked once, and it will forever more. Nothing else to see here, move on..

My life experience has been the opposite. The more I know, the more I realize how little I know, and the more I need to know. Like sitting in the arctic circle in summer, watching the sun go down and then decide to start rising again.

Am I devolving? Am I becoming more stupid and childlike?

Perhaps being a child is the way to be?

Watching some water slowly flow across sand in nothing but the same bewilderment of the first time.

Its so very same, yet so very different. Universes in every crack, galaxies in every drop

Yes, all the time.

when i was a child, i did not feel like a child, and i still feel the same way now.

so i guess i still feel the same way as i did when i was a child, and that is that i do not feel like a child.

i never identified with other children then, and i still do not identify with them, so nothing has changed.
i identify with no one much so i guess i am not like an adult either.

i see adults as all concerned about things that matter nothing to me.
for example they seem to have an instinctive need to congregate and bond and build a network of friends, and have a partner and children and "settle down" (whatever that means (i have only a vague idea (something like stop doing whatever they please))).
"wife & kids" is the most important thing to adult men. "me and my animals" is the most important thing to me.

adults see me as being undeveloped in my brain because i have no desire similar to their desires.

a man who does not like me at work (when i have go in to the office(i usually work from home)) was talking to me in the coffee room about how his 2 sons were starting "footy" training on saturday.
i said "i am not interested in kids sorry" and i started to walk out, but he had a problem and we talked further.
he said "are you serious mate?"
i said i was.
he then said to me "mate, a persons only purpose on earth is to bring another life into it, and care for it, and help build the next generation and make life better for them than it was for us."

well that is not how i feel. i could not care less what happens to the world the day after my death. i told him that and he said "mate.. that gets my goat up" (which apparently means it makes him angry).

if i try to think about it, as far as i can see, in the future there will be a "last person alive" from the human race just before extinction. using his logic, the final human to be alive after all others have died will be the reason that the whole human race existed.
so if that person dies childless (as would be the case unless it is a parent of children who all died before them), then that life would be useless too.
that would render the entire history of humanity useless.
of course my assertions were seen as very primitive and lacking of maturity. i told him to get back to work.

kids see me as a laughing stock because i am not like other adults they know. they quickly pick up on how to confuse me, and before long they are saying nonsense things to me which i do not understand. they laugh at me just like they did when i was a child myself.

sorry i am too verbose. (i know i say that too much).

My mum makes me feel like one sometimes simply cause I can't cook. I can but can't be bothered alot of the time simply of her negativity.

Most definitely.

I still collect dolls and colorbooks. Whenever my nieces are over I get to have excuses for going to the zoo or smudging paint everywhere. Most things I do are at randome like flipping wads of paper at people as they walk by or shouting from a distance and then hiding. I don't know why I do it...but I'm sure adults would find it appalling or childish.

absolutely

Still play Video games
Watch cartoons (I LOVE SPONGE BOB)

I'm 16 but I feel aobut 11 most of the time. And I've noticed i feel "looked" after or "mothered" by my only 2 friends that are girls and the same age as me

I don't feel like a child, however.. Sometimes I do like to watch cartoons and can do it for hours (TMNT) and some would call this a non adult behaviour, but I don't think it is.

The reason to why I choose to say no in this question relates very much to the fact that I often feel very uncomfortable when people are behaving without taking responsibility over things and when discussions has no meaning and so on which is a common thing to be part of when you're still a child. To be honest, I didn't even like it as a child either.

I want to see myself as an adult which still can enjoy to have the child sense inside me. It's impressive what kids can do and adults often under estimate their ability to hack computer systems and so on (I experience it as a bit funny!).

Totally. I feel as I'm only 12 years old.

Born old, and growing younger as the years pass by.


M.

Virgin poster here... discovered this forum while researching Aspergers/ADHD/ADD/HFA/etc. (a lot of reading, I know).

Without going into specifics as to why I suspect Aspie's with not only myself, but with my child as well, suffice it to say that all signs point towards this. I realize I am not a PhD, that's why I'm going to discuss this subject with my psychiatrist this very day.

I felt compelled to respond to this thread in particular because it resonated within me a feeling of "Wow, something I can relate to."
As a child, I had been often described as "emotionally mature far beyond his years" by teachers and the like. I certainly had little in common with other kids my age. To me, that's what being a child felt like. As the years pass, I find myself with much the very same mindset as I had back in my youth.

So, in essence, Do I feel like I'm still a child? Absolutely!!
Do I feel childish? In my own mind, no, but perhaps others would regard that differently.

/still left with alot of questions without answers
//sorry for the long-windedness

I feel as though parts of me were left behind at all various younger ages. I enjoy some simply pleasures exactly as I did at 4 or 5, and can be silly with the best of them like I'm 10 years old.

However, with a few decades of learning and observing behind me, and a bit more patience, I now fuse my age-defying natural tendencies with a more age-appropriate sense of responsibility and duty. But when I have the chance, the little girl in me comes back out to play.

I can definitely relate here.

I don't know if it has something to do with not having had friends or much social interaction or what.

It wasn't until I was 6, that I could actually talk. The other half was spent with me trying to draw pictures of objects or making words up for things I wanted to say.

Even in my teen years I feel like I'm compensating for a lot that was lost....yet I don't know if there was anything more lost than any "regular" teen.

I never went to proms, dates, school dances, extracuricular activities, clubs, friends. Most friends I tried to make were fair weathered. I only had one really good close friend throughout my life and she's been gone for a couple of years now.....

As my life goes by, I fear I may go crazy or revert back to being a child. I don't always behave in the most "adult" like manners. Yet I also seem to too mature in other things such as adult appropriate activities. Can't seem to go on blind dates or get into bar scenes anymore....use to be real bad even when I did.