Mike51 wrote:
It isn't that I feel immature or do childish things, it's that I seem to see others as being my elders, not always in age, but in a sort of social respect, I suppose. I've never felt I was taken seriously or deserved the sort of respect to which mature adults are entitled.
It's interesting. I can remember my mother saying something very similar to that. It struck me as odd as a child because however she phrased it confused me, and I tried to figure out how she could get older but still be younger than everyone else. When I became an adult myself, I still remembered her saying that and realized that I felt the same way. I should think of myself as learned and wise, but I don't. I even see people younger than me as elders. It makes me wish she were alive so that I could talk to her about it.
I definitely feel younger than my age. I never understood the concept of being "too old" for things that you enjoy. Friends that I had when I was younger outgrew me. I still don't really feel like an adult despite the fact that I've been self-sufficient for a very long time.
It makes me think if: "When I was a child I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I fought as a child, but when I became a man I put away childish things."
WHY? Why do people reach a point where suddenly they are interested in totally different things? I don't understand it. I'll keep my childish things, thank you very much.