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Having 'metaphysical guarantee' maybe by a deity if necessary) that any attempts by me to assert myself will not cause mass ripple effects which will to the detriment of the +7.6 billion other fellow species members I have to share space and time with as well as ..basically that I what I bring up here viewtopic.php?t=369263 won't happen to me, not the least with a 'material implication'/neurological impact of an anxiety based on shame,self-blame and/or guilt emerging.


That or a superpower like the mutant 'Forge' in the X-men series and being able to like intuitively perceive the kinetic motion and hence come off as a technical and mechanical master because it would help in my opinion for me to feel a lot safer learning to drive.

Self-trust is almost murderously a pain to learn.

Occupational therapy

Speech therapy

Applied behavioral analyst

More counseling.

(Maybe)

Better weather and health

Ghetto riffraff stop trying to sell me drugs or buy drugs from me

Other dipshits stop telling me that I did something wrong . Every slightest thing you do, that they don't like, is like inciting a riot . They act like they have an unlimited number of calories to waste, trying to enforce their concept of justice

Financial reparations and closure, from homophobic precious lil "people"

...that there be indefectible non-abortifacent hormonal contraceptives, that my pet dog and cat

feel better and more active, that I have less body hair,

that my *functional* atheism be understood and accepted by my family

that I have enough of a social circle to no longer lapse into pornography (today -_- )..

that ppl don't swear, that ppl don't lie even within or as a part of humor,

that 'macho-ness' be vanquished, that I understand what friendship means to me

,that I understand what others understand as friendship, that the word 'buddy' be stopped in using,

that I know how to drive, that it trust myself, that there be no more ridicule or judgement,

that there by more ppl in my age group who also speak Spanish, that I have a body and abilities like Duncan Wong

minus the tatoos,that it takes 1/100 of the amount of effort and time it takes to learn anything, that I have my own

apartment,that I can assert myself for anything at anytime and that I not be meet with retort or at least always be

able to perform a 'compensating ritual' if I do, that others understand how much temperment and reciprocation as

indicative of respect within character be understood, that ppl 'come out' about being 'boring' and that an

understanding of that change enough that ppl can embrace mindfulness, that no one ever really swears, that what I

would expect in terms of artistic output be feasible within a relatively short and acceptable span of time, that

substance addiction no longer a thing and that forms of assisted death would at least functionally no longer be a

thing which ppl would consider,that the ppl who I liked--that they may come to prosper and that there parents may

become 'well-to-enough/ that they can be relieved when it comes to that, that both my parents be given $7 billion to

secure them 'being out of my case'/life for the remaining years of their life, that I could go on a meditation retreat for

at least 2 weeks, that I be able to accomplished certain high school math courses well, that a woman say "I forgive

you" for the unfathomable amounts of pornography I have been on, that the homeless ppl who I annoyingly think as

the city's version of a personae dramatis become 'well to do', that the word 'nerd' no longer be used, that I no longer

struggle at *ANY* job I take, that the inferiority-complexes so often conflated with masculinity and any other form

of 'power-over-others' inequity producing attitude be gone, that ppl which much sooner 'care too much' at the drop

of a hat than 'not care'...that everyone would much sooner 'care too much' at the drop of a hat than 'not care'...that

I can know that metaphysics won't penalize me...that I can have the guarantee that metaphysics won't penalize me.

including when I use certain words..that I have a place to live of my own to express my autonomy, that the

neurological impact of years of hatred be gone.


I have trouble accepting that there is nothing wrong with my decisions

don't be suprised that I am adding more so soon..that the triggering memories I have all be gone, that everyone

increase in terms of responsibility 500 x fold, that nudity and sexuality and being open about it be a majorly more

feasible undertaking, that my attention span be more than healthy, that I be nearly perfect at anything I do .i.e. that

mistakes almost never happen when I do them, be secure that I can still deserve to be around women even after

indulging in pornography, that ppl understand why I take education with an almost uncompromising seriousness, that

everyone actively live by not 'caving into' classism and it's grasp which is keenly understood enough that a post-

scarcity solarpunk world actually be feasible and their be less awful politics along the way...that the understanding of

what ugliness be change.. saddahati.

That I understand what it means to know stuff but realize it's not going to change things but still

wind up kissing the a-- of any fool who interferes with me, to know that I won't wake up becoming

or with the face of cruel and narcissistic ppl who f---d up my life, to have lifelong access to

McMaster's libraries and have an improved grasp of 'Eastern religions', to be as skilled a logician as

Saul Kripke, that I no longer need to view violent content to be energized, that I can live without

consistently comparing myself to others, lead a life which is active, self-accept a life which is

active based on neither pornography addiction prevention nor school.

That I understand what it means to know stuff but realize it's not going to change things but still

wind up kissing the a-- of any fool who interferes with me, to know that I won't wake up becoming

or with the face of cruel and narcissistic ppl who f---d up my life, to have lifelong access to

McMaster's libraries and have an improved grasp of 'Eastern religions', to be as skilled a logician as

Saul Kripke, that I no longer need to view violent content to be energized, that I can live without

consistently comparing myself to others, lead a life which is active, self-accept a life which is

active based on neither pornography addiction prevention nor school.

That homework habits, good homework habits be feasible for me.

$7 billion dollars in Canadian currency for my parents and myself, my own apartment or condominium, no monetary

restriction on art supplies when need be and a mass shift in global consciousness of actively practicing 'caring' on the

basis of and in alignment with 'Eros' instead of 'Logos'


https://youtu.be/vfkXHBHGJik?t=65-- materialism becomes 'no longer sinful', the responsible kind (ex.environmentalism)

is practiced and actively lived out/endorsed, consumeristic priorities and addictions are reduced by 2/3 as does toxic

hegemonic masculinity within power structures like classism (i.e. 'working class d---baggery') accompanying .b.s. false

necessities like capital punishment and warfare as well making a post-labor world feasible and with a permaculture b/c

post-scarcity is a thing with consumeristic addiction much more dead also b/c ppl actually have epistemic responsibility

far more embedded within them than impulses for theistic or metaphysical following making the non-theory of mind like

religions safely dissipate and in hindsight actually appreciated, healthy and open genderless dialogue about sexuality

increases several fold as does understanding and safety for minorities sexual, ethnic, neurological etc.


There is a reason why 'utopia' means 'not a place'.

--Having a entirely comprehensive discussion with 'the ultimate reality' / what others might project as 'the theistic God'

about what actually happens to all the 'mal-consciousness breaches'/psychic energy from when I do view what is less

ambiguously pornographic/ 'how is it processed', an understanding of certainty-guarantees for when assert myself won't

have a 'bad consequence' for myself or others and how it does if it does and the utter dissipation of what could be

considered 'boring' b/c I'm curious to see how the world is like if a certain factor brought up in a Kierkegaard quote isn't a

thing or an entirely comprehensive discussion with 'the ultimate reality' / what others might project as 'the theistic God'

about what actually happens when 'boring' and other words I'm afraid of are actually uttered by myself and others/ 'how

is it processed'.



--Being able to remain a certain age (23 if not the current 27 or whichever age I reached my max height at) and no aging

while still qualifiable chronologically becoming older or having an experience like that in something along the lines of the

'hyperbolic time chamber' in the 'Dragon ball series.


--Having my Italophobia and it's connection to my resentment towards Catholicism understood by everyone including

Italians and being highlighted as how inexcusable/unacceptable the 'taking for granted' working-class d---baggery is a

toxic attitude which will dissipate like overt support for chattel slavery did.


--that I find a word which can encapsulate the concept of d---bag for me to cease using the word d---bag. An influence

on me (https://medium.com/the-secret-history-o ... 323002f85d)

for how I would no longer like to use a genderized or racialized word.


-Having a entirely comprehensive discussion with 'the ultimate reality' / what others might project as 'the theistic God'

about what actually happens to all (*possible(?)*) 'mal-consciousness breaches'/psychic energy from when I do

explore or intellectualize or am exposed to anything having to do with death, assisted or otherwise (like suicide).

ambiguously pornographic/ 'how is it processed'

A far more developed understanding of friendship.

Erotic female wrestling---an admittance to one thing I experimented in viewing when it came to a recent pornography lapse and I would like to think I am at liberty to say here.

Getting my dad 'out of the picture', *functionally* out of the picture without the extremity of death--that 'would help [me] get on better in life?'.

This is being b/c an excess of phone chargers being present and not requested by me are not here to 'help [me] get on better in life' currently.

absence of mental/physical senescence.

That my agnosticism and 'flavour of non-belief' be more understood and accepted.

Apology and financial reparations, from homophobic simpletons

Better weather

Fewer pain and temperature receptors

More serotonin

Less homophobia

Apology from mister redelings

Get rid of dogs

Better public transportation

Ssri