I feel like I'm on the verge of ruining my life

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As others may have noted, I think it's important to recognize that, in the current economic climate, it is difficult, for most people, to find suitable full time employment. From my perspective, this is not an individual problem, it is a result of complex economic, social and political circumstances. From my perspective, these circumstances are not directly under the control of individuals. And so, at times, when there is no identifable person or entity responsible for these circumstances, it can be tempting for people to project intense emotions, arisen out of these circumstances, onto others. For example, your mother may, feeling unable to control the circumstances of her life (i.e., divorce and financial stress), refer to you as lazy. As such, it's important to resist this temptation by developing ways to support one another through these difficult times. In essence, during stressful times, people can form closer relationships or they can drift apart.

I was going to say something similar to what UnderTheSea said. Check in with your mother and see how she's doing. Is she this overbearing regularly, or is this circumstantial? You might find out that she's got some baggage herself and is trying to keep it from you, and this might be putting an extra strain on her.

Also, sit down with her and start getting her input into your job search. Get her on your side. Don't be defensive about what you have already done. (This is the hardest but most important thing to do to keep both of you from getting oppositional.) Honestly ask what other suggestions she might be able to offer, and be willing to listen and try out her suggestions, even if your gut feeling is that you might not want to. If she's not normally overbearing, then she knows you well enough to know what you are capable of and what might at least get you on the right track.

Be each others' support and your relationship with your mom should get better.

Also, why aren't you talking to your dad anymore? Considering moving might mean living with someone you otherwise don't talk to, but who isn't on your case nagging you and causing undue stress for you. Over time, maybe your relationship with him could get better?