ninagrrl wrote:
I have never had my license. I got my permit back when I was 17 and had awful experiences. My dad tried to teach me how he did my brothers, who both did fine; -one is aspie and other is NT (although I think he is a sociopath, but that's another story). I have driven a total of an hour spread over 4 different experiences and once rolled the back end of a three speed standard gmc Sierra 6 feet down an 8 foot ditch when it stalled. Since then, the closest I have come to driving is getting my permit (which has since expired) a second time at 34 and sit in the drivers seat. I finally don't have panic attacks but have yet to start the engine. I can't imagine actually driving and just considering the possibility is almost enough to trigger a meltdown. Honestly, it is the primary source of my low self esteem issues and I feel it is ruining my life to always depend on so many people to cart my ass around.
Wow...I'm so sorry about all that. I've never had my license either, but I'm only 23, so I'm still fairly young for it. I hope it doesn't take too much longer. Have you ever tried switching to a different type of vehicle? For the longest time I rode my bike, and so naturally I switched to a scooter, and it feels
a lot better than driving a car (the only thing that sucks is snow/ice).
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