did turning 30+ make your aspie symptoms worse?

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I've forgotten 29 but I remember 30. It was the year I made a concerted effort to fully liberate myself from society and pursue my own interests unhindered by anyone else's opinion.

raised orphaned wildlife, bouncer for a pub, skinny dipped everyday, lived in my car, discarded my phone, started bush walking alone in wilderness for weeks on end, explored my feelings for other women, performing rituals to connect with nature, the elements and the universe, fine tuned my man-hate.

Observers may have interpreted my behaviour as erratic, hormonal, thyroid imbalance, drug induced even but I didn't care. It took me a few years to settle down, so to speak, but I thoroughly enjoyed the freedom.

I've been told that 40 is another year of liberation and I look forward to it.

I didn't know I was aspergers then so this next milestone will be very interesting.

Actually, at 29 I had a major breakdown, suffered severe depression, attempted suicide and was asked to leave my job in the police service. All very forgettable.

Actually I got my first and still unofficial diagnosis at age 35. Got praised for my camouflaging skills as well. Apparently, they are breaking down or else I'd still be undercover.

I have passed the 50th decade mark, and for me it just keeeps getting better - the NTs generally get better about neurodiversity too. Wisdom is a wonderful thing! I am looking 60 in the eye with optimism....
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My mom, who has no diagnosis but many traits, and who has always felt like a freak, has been much happier as an older woman and has a much easier time making friends now.

I don't think its you, Severus.

I was unofficially first DXed at about 47-years, and officially DXed this year (at 56), but I have been aspie for over half a century. I find it the world is becoming a more and more difficult place to "pass."

I used to be able to keep my head down, cause no trouble, and let my savant skills over-compensate for my idiot skills, but now the bean-counters want people to account for things (detail things like paperwork and organization) for which I am a total idiot and my savant skills (gestault things like direct therapy, management of client needs, and thinking outside the box) don't even count to anyone (but the clients and their families, but they don't count to the bean counters at all - they are a necessary evil). Its all about quantity over quality, fitting everyone into labeled boxes, and micromanagement. Trouble is, my pay check comes from those bean counters, not my families. I could NOT attend school in today's "no child left behind" world. Being invisible was the only thing that kept me in school!

Like I said above, people over 50 seem to grow more tolerant of neurodiversity, but those whippersnappers who are currently in positions of power (and who are my co-workers) can be so VERY intolerant.
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Why, thanks for the heads-up It's a relief to know that not every single thing is my fault.