I hate my age...

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Maturity is subjective, imho. I am a much more selfish brat now than 10 or 15 years ago, as I am getting resentful in my old age, but much wiser. I wise I knew then what I know now. I don't no what median age I 'd want to stop at, worst part about ageing is your mind still seems young - things just start wearing out or slowing down, it really sucks, plus Aspies feel it so much more. I can't find a crowd or group of friends to relate to - perhaps if I was in more of a Literature group but they don't exist where I live.

I don't hate my age, but I am to the point that I realize that there are some things that I will probably never get right. for instance, when I was young, I was told repeatedly that I was a hottie, and that all the guys wanted to jump on me. Now, in my forties, I am finally staring to think that maybe I am attractive, but too late! Everything is starting to wear out. Oh, well.

Aw, shucks, did I kill it? Sorry...

I can relate to this a great deal. I'm 23 now, and feel the same way, but it's gotten better since when I was 18. I don't even like telling people how old I am. It's embarrassing, in a way. I've always gotten along better with people much older than me. Even my partner (and father of my child) is almost 16 years older than me. More than anything, other people's age just isn't important to me. But I find myself struggling to remember that when I'm talking to people around my age, rather than talking to people that are much older than me. I just relate better to those that have been around for awhile, and I always have. I consider some of my parent's friends to be my friends. It's a bit of a condundrum, because I can't seem to make friends with people around my age, but when I become friendly with people older than me, I feel like I can't really be their friend because they're just going to think of me as less of a person just because I was in diapers when they were graduating high school. Still, most people I've gotten to know on some level are pretty cool about it. Just do your best to put yourself out there (hard, I know) and hopefully people will see past your age, if they know what's good for them.

I struggled with that feeling superior thing, too. It's awkward, because a part of me does feel superior to people my own age, and a part of me feels completely self-conscious for being so different.

Everyone has thought that I was older than I was ever since I was about 10. In fact, I was able to get into the bars quite easily when I was fourteen.

For the last ten or so years, people guage me to be about five to ten years older than I was. However, this has changed recently after I started with my GF. Now, people seem to place me at my actual age. Stranger things, I suppose.