postpaleo wrote:
Employee of the month. That's way cool, I guess. Handles and titles and awards are all sort of nice. In this day and age they tend to pass by the good stuff. Did it come with a raise in pay.
I don't think so. I don't know. I just had a raise and bonus not too long ago. Even this boss gets weird around me because I give no indication of how I feel about things, especially work. Work is work to me. It is something I do for money to get along. I don't value it although I'm good at it, if that makes sense. So when she gave me my review she said, I don't know how to motivate you, I have no idea if you even like your job and I have no idea what you want to be doing here in five years. I told her I like my job fine and I don't want to do anything else. I also told her not to make me a manager or try to push me into another job or I would quit. Then she told me about my raise and bonus. I just said, thanks. She kept asking, is that all right? I tried to get as much as I could. Is that enough? Well market-wise it is more than enough, so I'm not sure what she was getting at. I'm not good at those things. I just kept saying it's fine. She just kept getting more nervous.
I think this award would mean more if I was sure why I got it. I'm just doing what I do. At lunch someone saw it and started asking me all these questions. Why did you get that? Who gave it to you? What did they say? I realized I'll be in for more of that because of it, so I went back and put it under some papers on my desk. I don't want everyone coming back here and talking to me. THAT will annoy me.
Money would be okay, but I don't know what I'd spend it on.
The term Kool Aid as I've heard it used, as in "don't drink the kool aid" or "they must have been drinking the kool aid" comes from the Jonestown massacre. I didn't know about Electric Kool Aid. Sounds like something I missed while I was on major pharmaceuticals. I should have bought stock back then in Eli Lilly.
Here's another one. At lunch one of the NTs, who is plotting her escape from the Corporate world to read tarot cards for a living, said she is afraid she has become too much a part of the institution to make it on her own. I told her that means we've all been insitutionalized. Now that I think about it, working in corporate America is in fact like being institutionalized. Rubber room anyone? Get your straight jackets here!
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People say I'm crazy
doing what I'm doing,
Well they give me all kinds of warnings
to save me from ruin