Experienced Loss of motivation
Hey I was wondering if anyone else has this problem. Now from time to time I become extremely bored of everything. Usually I confine myself to my room not for any particular reason but I do feel more comfortable there. My boredom is also accompanied by tiredness, loss of motivation, and the inability to think in general. I end up lying down for hours on my bed trying to remember things I wanted to. When I finally figure out what I want to do I don't do it because I become lost in a state of indifference, I reach a point where I still have no idea what I want and I lay in bed playing on my computer, sleeping or doing nothing for hours or even days. Despite this I go to work on time, feed plus look after myself, and if I need to go out for something I go and do it. My problem is I find it hard to do things when I'm at home by myself on my days off. I become bored and completely lose any motivation. It's not that I'm lazy or depressed either I just can't think sometimes. Anyone else have this problem?
I get like this from sensory overload. if I didn't have work or other things that i have to do, or if i could get others to do those things for me... well, i dont think i'd ever get out of them. I'd become a vegetable living in a pig sty! This happens to NTs too though and when you get stuck in it its called chronic depression. The way out is only to become active... for activity's sake. example: cleaning your house will make you want to clean your house, apathy derives from inaction and as Aspies and our tendency to "overload" we are more susceptable to these feelings and to them becoming a rut that leads to depression.
I also go through periods of no motivation. Can`t even think. Almost mentally nonverbal. Zoloft has helped, but drugs aloneare not the entire solution. I lost my great ambitions and special interests in the arts. Pianos went virtually obsolete. Iused to own 11of the critters for rebuilding and sale. My ambitious professions of piano technology and film were dead in the water, so to speak.
Nothing else interested me.
Then I got into jerry`s special interest of racing and use my savant skills to be rather excellent at it.
Now I am not going through those maddening, lengthy periods of mental and motivational vaccuum any more. I even. Feel like writing books again.
The good ol` autistic obsession part of me makes me feel so happy and alive again!
That's happened to me a few times throughout my life, and it's always difficult. I usually pull out of it by listing out the things in my life that are making me unhappy. Deep, root issues, like social isolation, doubting my worth, losing my dreams, and other things that I'm just not happy with in life. Usually, that list isn't easy to generate, because I feel trapped in such a way that there doesn't always seem to be an alternative to the way things are now. It's like trying to think, "I wish it would be lighter out," when I can only conceptualize darkness. It just doesn't even cross my mind. But then I do my best to affect a change, by finding ways to prove my worth to myself and such. Maybe taking baby steps at first, even when I don't think it'll help. Sometimes it takes me weeks just to get started, but when I get into the swing of things and start seeing that I'm not as trapped as I thought I was, the depression usually starts fading. From then on, it's a matter of reassuring myself and doing general life maintenance so I don't sink back into that state of mind.
Sometimes it means I need to give something up that I've loved for a long time, too. Certain obsessions, certain dreams or projects... sometimes even people. In those situations, it's about learning to just let go and follow my heart to where it really wants to be.
I hope that helps you.