I feel like I'm on the verge of ruining my life

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I'm 24, a college graduate in debt, working part-time, and seeking a full-time job. A few days ago, my car slipped on ice and ended up on the sidewalk, breaking my axle. I ended up having to get it scrapped and now my mom is more pissed at me than ever. Walking to work is not an option for me, neither is taking a bus. Ever since I graduated college, my mom has been nagging me to get a job. I have been looking online for jobs everyday, but there's not many things that I'm actually qualified for. Now that I have no car, she has gotten worse and is threatening to send me to live with my dad out of state. As an adult, I legally have the choice to say no but my options are limited because I'm not financially independant . I don't talk to my dad anymore and I don't want to. I am recently getting help from the department of disabilities to find a job. I really want to have a good relationship with my mom again, and it upsets me that we don't get along anymore. She never fails to remind me that I'm lazy and that I always screw up. She is right about me being lazy and I want to change that, but I have very little confidence in myself. I can't even talk to my mom without getting into an argument with her. She has had a very bad year. She recently got divorced and is barely making ends meet, and she also has the burden of supporting me financially.

i don't believe anyone is lazy. there is always some other extenuating reason why the person is "underperforming" like lack of confidence or extreme perfectionism or fear of failure or fear of success. your mother is being abusive. she is taking her troubles out on you. you are looking for a job. you are doing your part. that said, chances are good your mom won't let up until you are contributing financially. try to keep perspective and remember you deserve support. come here for it when you need to.

You have a sick codependency with your mother. You should probably move far away, try to make it on your own.

english major. around here that would qualify you to substitute teach (ohio) or write for a newspaper. one of my friends from college ended up writing political speeches. another went on to grad school and teaches college writing - not much lecturing - she gives a writing assignment, the students write in class, then she grades the papers.

are these the sorts of things you're interested in? and, oh, any college degree will qualify you to manage a restaurant, but that is grueling work. it pays well, though.

It is terribly hard to get a job right now. You need to work as hard as you can. Keep a journal of the jobs that you have applied to everyday to show to whoever wants to look that you are looking. Strecth your field wide open. I was an anthropology major but have worked in nonprofit fund-raising because I can write so well, not type though (lol). Good luck. If there is someplace you can go that will helpa lso. any friends form college who aer sympathetic?

Try as hard as you can to stop centering everything around your mother. Do whatever you can to keep focused on yourself and what you are doing ot make your life a better situation.

I was going to say you could apply to teach basic english in another country, like sri lanka, which I have heard is fun, but you wrote you don't want to teach.
How do you feel about isolated locations? Hotels that are far enough from civilization often offer jobs that come with room and board. These jobs can run from maintenance, to housekeeping, to working at the front desk or in the restaurant. They are also not too picky about qualifications, because it is hard to get people to work so far away from things.