Math/Science Aspie

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Well, so here it is -- I'm 43 going on 44 and have finally come to terms with being an aspie. My off the cuff justification is, well who wants to be an idiot anyhow.

So there NTs!

I've had the typical Aspie experience, but a little different because my father and most of his family are Aspies, but we didn't call ourselves that, we call ourselves - Math/Science people - LOL.

I have terrible anxiety, and consider all NTs - dim witted. I've become quiet arrogant from the years of abuse. Yoga seems to tame my inner beast however, so thankful for that.

I keep my expenses very, very low and I work in a field where they need ME, in the event I'm let go. I never believe in job security. I don't need the job. That is key for an Aspie. Find a job in Math/Science that is hard to fill, so that the employer will value your WORK, and make sure you outshine all those NTs (dim wits), shouldn't be difficult, never was for me. lol.

I found a very good boyfriend, never could manage to get him to marry though. He said something was *wrong*. Yeah - me - I'm wrong - fabulous.

People NTs don't like me, never have. They do however like my brains, so I get used for that. Once I was an adult I started masking how smart I was, since I consider it none of their business. They like to ask me for information about things they could never figure out, then they back stab me.

I'm an honest, hard working, straight shooter type of Aspie - like most of us. I don't like the bs of NTs. I'll never understand their politics - its like a Soap Opera, that they place themselves as a star in. How is it they are so deluded and I'm the one with the emotional disorder?!?

Shouldn't people who can't think logically or hardly at all have a Logic Disorder. Considering the amount of time they consume from the rest of us by clogging up the highways/freeways/ major through fares, they should have to pay a NT Pollution fee, and we Aspies should get it as part of our tax refund, for having to tolerate the anxiety they create in us.

Well, I'm tired and have to go to bed now. I hope I didn't offend anyone - I always say that in my NT world and sooner or later, usually 2 weeks after I start working somewhere someone gives me a glare. WTF!! How am I supposed to know what lurks in those NT brains. I try so hard to be polite, I always say good morning, good evening, good night, etc...

I almost NEVER can get relationship to get past the good morning/evening stage. I'm just totally devoid of such ability.

I am a Research Scientist and I found a lot of me in what you said.
I am trying more and more to be positive though and discovering that I am Aspie has been helping a lot. I also work on not caring too much about what NTs think about me and about what they did to me. I actually love to be different from them, I like being so focused and honest without having any effort to do. I hear them complain about how much they would rather do something else but work (play) and I wonder why they are still there if they would rather do something else, because me I would... I think that there is so much of time wasting in being a NT.

My autism doctor said many of my family members sound AS. We are good at systemizing (which maps to math/science). However, the males - while very smart - are unemployed, because they cannot work in a structured workplace. One female is very smart, but she cannot handle the stress in a professional job, so she works for McDonalds.

So, we are a family of mostly unemployed AS people.

Before I retired from the Service Dept. where I worked I was doing a telephone based customer service job which included help with technical issues and scheduling and assignment of traveling service technicians to other parts of the country.

I was able to begin each day at 6:00AM before the disruptions of the day began and an ideal time so I could concentrate on my "Traveling Serviceman (sic) Problem" scheduling. After I retired they replaced me with one, then two people but they were never able to duplicate my efforts and were forced to another, more costly and less efficient, system.

I should have suggested they try to hire another aspie, but didn't find out my "oddness" throughout my life was AS, until 7 years after I retired. LOL

denny

I just learned that I had AS just over a year ago and I am still trying to come to terms with it.



Hey! At least you have family to relate to. I was the only one in the family who was a Math/Science Aspie and that made it harder for me to relate.



Throwing your intellectual weight around does not earn you any browning point with the NT's. I had to learn that the hard way.



Most of the $h!t that NT's do makes me sick anyways.



As long as NT's are the majority. That will never happen. So don't hold your breath.



Hey! I am 42 and have never been on a date.

i have to say this place is a refreshing oasis for me. i seem to be the only one in my family (and wife's family) that is AS. The ignorance is baffling.

i try to love and respect everyone and have always been the odd one out so my frustrations with everyone else were mostly turned inward with the constant reminder that i was the one not acting the correct way (though all logic led me to the contrary and the NT world, which i only knew as the world, was at odds with logic).

i'm very grateful for this community.