Bubbling up anger towards others at bad times

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Hi:
I wanted to post something and I know that I am in the process of looking at sitting down with a counselor. It seems that whenever I do something such as bank account reconciling that I get frustrated when I don't understand something. Not only that I appear to feel angry towards other people who hurt me. I want to know if anyone else with bitterness, anger etc also feels this way.

Normally I am really easy-going but lately I have been under a lot of stress, & I am finding when stressful situations come up I am now reacting in an angry way. I might already be frustrated with several situations in my life at once, and needing a break but instead I get somebody asking questions (nosy or nice & concerned) and I often have a short angry burst in word or action and then I feel guilty and apologize for the disrespect.
Caisen (dairy protein) removal is said to help some autistic kids have fewer tantrums or outbursts. I tried that elimination diet and it did take the edge off my anger. At that time I also saw a therapist (for AS) who told me the anger was justified.
This can be an intensely frustrating society for us.
So I do apologize sincerely but sometimes people react badly anyway. This kind of stuff has really messed up my life as an autistic adult.

When I've experienced too many stressful, challenging situations in too compact a time-period, have not had adequate sleep for my needs, and haven't had enough quiet in my life, I have a short fuse with anything else that happens, minor frustrations, or anyone else who rubs me the wrong way, yes.

When I have had relative peace and quiet, enough sleep, quality time alone and/or with animals, and nothing bad has happened for a while such as the disruptions that have occurred in my sh***y apartment building, and other situations that can be unpredictable, then I feel like I have the "recharged batteries" enough to not get so rattled by anything or anyone.

So basically: Happy well-rested and needs-met Me = patience, kindness, ability to cope with negatives.
Harried, upset, tired, even bullied, and already beset by problems Me = short fuse, no coping skills left, and "what the F did you just say to me??"

I'm still dealing with vestiges of PTSD and an ongoing stressful situation (two actually) so I'm not coping well at all, but I have my good days.