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HelloSweetie
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04 Dec 2016, 7:45 am

:( It's been a while.
Need to vent.

A pile up of s**t.
Health is really bad, lots of pain.
Stress at my work.
Stress at his work.
Stress with our living situation.
Stress from son due to increased demands at school.
Huge communication issues and misunderstandings.
Little alone time. Work space is freezing.

Hang in there?
Or take all my pills and booze and say goodbye?
Or get committed again?

Thoughts?
I could use some hugs...



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04 Dec 2016, 9:22 am

Try and hang in there as much as possible, but.

Try and get some time for yourself for special interests, stimming, exercise, scream, cry, use your pillow as a punching bag to let off steam etc, whatever you need, even if it is a very short period of time here and there. Try and get your sleep and medication as much as possible
Completely focus on one problem at a time.
Something like Work Problem 1 when you first arrive at the job, Work Problem 2 half hour later and so on..
Kid problems in the evenings and weekends or during part of lunch.
Relationship problems with significant other after your kid is asleep.

If you detail some of your specific problems WP members can give advice

I hope things improve for you,
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04 Dec 2016, 12:49 pm

I'll give you a hug, for what it's worth.


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HelloSweetie
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04 Dec 2016, 1:21 pm

Thank you both.
Taking it 1 breath of the time.
Being a mom makes the idea of suicide cruel.



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04 Dec 2016, 5:33 pm

You're too cute for words!

Hang in there, Sweetie.

Here's a big Wolfman Hug!



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04 Dec 2016, 5:57 pm

HelloSweetie wrote:
Hang in there?
Or take all my pills and booze and say goodbye?
Or get committed again?


This is daily feels for me and I have gotten to where I just ignore it. If existence doesn't matter enough to take a bunch of pills and booze and say goodbye then it doesn't matter enough to even care about anything that happens in life.

Hope you feel better,



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04 Dec 2016, 8:50 pm

Giving you a virtual HUG! Just remember how much your loved ones LOVE you even if it's not communicated well! Time is the most valuable thing we possess. Try reflecting on good memories of a less stressful happy time.


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HelloSweetie
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05 Dec 2016, 6:08 am

Thank you all so much :heart: Cherishing the warm fuzzy Wolfman :heart:

I feel a bit better. Took a sick day, doing some journaling, meditation and go for a walk.

It's been a while since I have felt so overwhelmed. I think it's residual emotion as well. It's my dad's birthday today and my mom passed away 2 years ago this month. I have/had a strained relationship with them and I guess my slow emotional processing takes its time and toll. Love is weird stuff. Especially when I get so numbed by stress I can't feel a thing.

Thanks again sweeties :heart:



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05 Dec 2016, 11:29 pm

*hugs* I'm very glad you are feeling better :heart:


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13 Dec 2016, 4:36 pm

I know I'm late, but hugs to you, and I hope things have improved for you. I'm really sorry things feel so overwhelming, and hope you can find some way to have some calm and relaxation from all the stress.



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14 Dec 2016, 10:51 pm

Many hugs to you. Sometimes this is all I can offer.


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14 Dec 2016, 11:31 pm

<<hugs>>