[The Life-Review] What have you done with your life...?

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Context : Suppose you have just «died» and are now in reflection of your former earth-life.
Some-how, you can sense the earth «behind» you (that you have left), and are now out-side of its «matrix.»
Sensing some kind of thought-transference, you sense a thought in the distance, and it asks you:

Personally, I have definitely experienced a lot more suffering than I believe I've played a part in causing. And the same applies to the fact that I think I've made the lives of others easier, overall. I consider myself to be a very 'nice' person - kind, caring and generous - but too much, I believe. In that, if you're a casual acquaintance and need something then I'll be the first one there to help, and that's often the case even if you've mistreated me in the past. It takes a lot for me to completely turn my back on someone. If I'm judging my life on that, perhaps I've given too much to other people.

Missing out on experiences in life? I'm not so sure. It's a difficult question to answer, because my wants and needs are very basic. I would love to have the money to travel more - most friends go on annual holidays and have often been abroad but that's simply out of my budget - but there isn't much that I really want in life. I had an extremely negative childhood. In adulthood I've had the typical achievements - I got a degree and I run my own business - but the point is that one thing overshadows absolutely everything else as far as I'm concerned. I'm a parent, and to me that simply wipes out every other negative and every other positive. If I had to judge life experiences, it would be everything else vs. parenting, and the parenting would win. I know that if I ended up on my death bed today, my prevailing thought would be "I'm dying happy, because I've known my daughter".

Educationally, I did quite well, attaining a Master's Degree in English.

In other areas, I fell way behind. I didn't get my driver's license for the first time until I was 48, which gives me just four years of independent driving experience. In that time, however, I have done quite a lot things of a social nature and now live quite an active life.

I work just part time, although my responsibilities at work have increased quite a bit and there is quite a bit more variety of experiences.

I never married, but I hope one day to do so.

I think the one thing I did right in life was give my pets long lives full of love.

A life review may be a painful and unfruitful exercise for someone with significant disabilities. A therapist one suggested this to me as "homework" and I did not do it, I found it overwhelming and sad.

So before trying to tackle these kinds of questions, ask yourself if this is a good exercise for you.