Feeling jealous of my partner again

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It's wrong and i'm annoyed but I feel so jealous of my partner and his achievements.

I have a degree but only got a 2.2 and stuck in just a boring admin role.

My partner in comparison autistic like me plus with epilepsy is topping up his degree and is getting 80% on average in his assignments I couldn't even get higher than 60%.

Even though he only has a HND he works a complex and very well paid role he easily not even taking overtime into account earns double of what I get easily the wage difference is so massive he moved it all into joint finances purely cause he didn't want me feeling like I was worthless when we went out and he had money to spend and I did not.

I am proud of what he has done and I know how lucky I have to have him but why do I feel jealous as well almost like I envy his success and think I deserve the small level of success.

I don't want to feel jealous of him cause he works hard but when I look at what he's achieved and what I have it feels like I failed in my life.

The problem might be not with you or his success, but eith your "boring admin role".
It sounds like you, as a couple, are financially stable. Have you considered finding something less boring for yourself to do?

I am looking at trying for a more interesting job but was not getting anywhere.

Boring admin is a stepping stone to more high level work, you are better of working on your own progression rather than trying to compare yourself with your partner.

A lot of company CEOs started their life pushing brooms and washing dishes.