Mourning and grief

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It’s always around this time of year I’m reminded of Amber my favorite cousin who died in 2014 on Good Friday. I’m really taking this hard. She was the closest to a sister my immediate family will ever get. I’ve had her on my mine the past 3 days and it’s tearing me apart inside.

i struggle in dealing with the madness of this sad world.

My father is now gone. Just like my grandparents on both sides of the family. I guess I'll be next, because my mom is strong both physically and emotionally. But I'm not. my relatives tell me I need to be strong, but I'm not. I'm weak and pathetic and should be the one who is dead because my father was a good and kind man, loved by just about everyone he knew, and he was usually happy.

I don't even know what's going to happen in the next few weeks. My relatives seem to think I should go back home and stay with my mom, but I really don't want to move back to the sticks where it's too far away from everything and inconvenient for me to live. But I don't want her to be all alone, either. I might not mind being alone, but she does. But I'll probably just make everything worse, anyway.

I'm terribly sorry to hear of your loss.

Grief is normal. It's even healthy. It's also something that is unique for everyone. People experience it differently, and you shouldn't analyze how you're experiencing it too closely, or compare your experience with other people.

I lost my father a couple of years ago, and it was tough. I didn't cry, or fall apart, but even after all this time, I'll think "I should call Dad, he'd find this interesting," or something like that, and I'll pause, and grieve a little bit. I also know people who lost their spouse, and were quite muted or stunned by everything, only to have grief overwhelm them a year later on their spouse's birthday or on their anniversary.

My cousin’s birthday is coming up sorry for y’all’s losses as well