Fear of death

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I have very high anxiety about the future. I fear what will happen when I die, specifically what will happen to my stuff including my "guys" and collections in general. I am worried they will be thrown out or worse if not just as bad, given to a plushphile who gets excited by destroying plushies or doing even worse to them (I fell down a rabbithole through a Build A Bear group and that's my next biggest fear after throwing them out). I want to open a museum dedicated to hypefixation when I die but I doubt it's possible. Also I fear what will happen to family photos/videos, things related to my cats/pets or my devices.

I find it a sad thought that some poor devil will have to clear my house of all the junk I've collected when I kick the bucket. I guess with you, your things feel more like pets, only with real pets somebody usually adopts them.

Me, I'm more sad about having to cease to exist, and more scared about the risk of being in increasing pain and knowing I'm going to die. Also the poor service of the NHS or the unaffordability of healthcare in the USA. I hope I go quick and that I don't know anything about it.

Reminds me of the Simon And Garfunkel song:

So I continue to continue
To pretend
That my life will never end
And flowers never bend with the rainfall

Best not to think about death much. It doesn't bother me a lot currently but it used to when I hit certain milestone ages like 40 or 50. I wish I didn't know how old I was. What idiot invented birthdays?

Ever since I developed this intense phobia, I started to feel myself rot.

I'm afraid that after I'm dead all my art and writing that I worked so hard on over the years will be thrown away like trash without even being looked at and it will like I never made them in the first place. I once told my mother that if anything ever happens to me to please save them.

Although when I am dead I won't care anymore. I won't feel anything because my body and mind will no longer be functioning I'll be nothing but worm food, and it will be as if I never lived and so there was no point. I think this is one of the reasons people have kids. They think they will be immortal in a way, since kids inherit their genes with their parents. But kids can be very different from their parents, so whatever.

I fear the act of dying. Also the fact that something so all encompassing is also extremely banal makes me sad.

My father was in WWII (he was probably an Aspie). He told me about how some of the men on a ship headed for battle asked him the very same question because he was so calm. His reply to them was "why worry about something you have no control over; if it happens it happens"

I am reminded of the Johari window, but I'm not going to explain why.

I have seen and done enough, felt and hurt enough to have little fear of death remaining.
I fear pain and loss of agency.

My amassed possessions can't be taken with me when I go, I hope people want to pick through them and take what they will, and sell off the rest
What nobody wants is burnable...I don't really have the family to create a legacy, so my history is irrelevant.

I don't want to give you nightmares, so I'm hesitant to present this.
I had a friend who fed plushies to his dog Astro.
Once the head was ripped off he would mount it on a small wooden shield with a name tag and date.
Astro's trophy collection outlived him and is still displayed 20 years later.

As I get older I'm getting more and more comfortable with the fact that I will die

I fear it. Fear of the unknown is a normal thing.

I have heard the testimonies from people who have “come back the dead” and said it is wonderful. Some scientists say it is hallucinations. It can not be proven one way or another.

I heard all the testimonies from people who gotten “signs” from departed loved ones. Again there is no way to prove if it was a sign or a coincidences that people want to believe are signs.

My big fear is nothingness which is what I think it is. Unless I remember a dream which is not very often I do not remember anything from when I am sleeping. I have been under general anesthesia a number of times and have no memory of that.

It's the nothingness part that makes me feel most comfortable with it

I mean obviously I wouldn't be aware of the nothingness....it's just lights out

I made my peace with the inevitability of death a while ago. I’m ready to go when the good Lord comes for me.

I think if you want certain things to be done after your death, there is no better option than to make a proper will, people tend to complete these even if they may find it silly

I'm not afraid of it at all, but I'm scared of how my kids would cope without me.
I have lots of life insurance just in case.
My more pressing fear is of loved ones dying.
I've had issues with that all my life, almost like a phobia of grief.

It's not dying that scares me.
It's whatever precedes it, I'd prefer quick and painless with a higher emphasis on quick.

I used to in my teens.

Then suddenly I lost said fear of death along with whatever I may leave behind when I... 'Woke up'...
In which my world became waaaay bigger and wayyy smaller simultaneously.


I still have a sense of self preservation though, deep down within this body and mind.
I still have attachments to certain ideas, events, and certain objects and where it may go or what may happen to it.
I still have this urgency to find seek something out, and that this life shouldn't be wasted or that I have a duty to life.

I don't mind dying.
Or be forgotten.

But what's beyond?
I hope to be able to explore more if there is conscious or will after death, not staying at one state or place right after life.

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I believe that there is nothing after death and I don't have a fear of nothingness. I won't even know that I am dead because I will no longer exist. Nor do I feel regret that I will no longer exist. I also don't care about what will happen to my stuff, including my artwork. I do have a fear of the manner in which I might die, that it might be painful or prolonged, or frightening, if it's an accident for instance. And since I don't have children I fear not having anyone to take care of me or having a difficult time in a nursing home.