Recently, I have been having suicidal thoughts and just feel like crying a lot. I was wondering why I felt like this since I am beginning to start college, and finally out of my hellhole of a school so I should be happy.
But then I remembered how yesterday evening got darker a lot quicker, so then I realised it is because winter is coming and at winter I get a dose of SAD because i just feel like an absolute mess when the winter comes. Last winter, I never did my homework because the house was so cold and I felt so drained and tired, I felt depressed all the time, all i wanted to do was eat, so that did not help and also i gained weight. I came across more weird than usually to my classmates and friends, which ended up with people dropping me and avoiding me.
I just need to know what can I do this winter to avoid being depressed from the weather? I just really do not want to come across as some mentally ill person at college, because this is my last shot to come across as a normal person to people, if that is how you want me to put it.
Any advice would be appreciated, thank you.