I would.
But it's expensive. Though I'm actually willing to budget and blast my savings for it.
And mostly because of my sensory needs and the only way to fulfill it is working out.
Except, it can make me risk getting sick the day after feeling sore.
I tried working out lighter. Whether at gym or at home.
It doesn't fulfill it.
By sensory needs, I want an intense workout that can leave my body numb for few hours at a time.
I really tried slow and gradual, and turns out I have so many disruptors.
I really wish I don't have any of it or just able to flat out ignore it.
My disruptors consists of regularly scheduled upper respiratory infections, which is a huge disruptor for something that needs a lot of steady breathing on rest.
And working out aggravates it.
My diet just couldn't keep up with it.
My sleep is too crappy to keep up with it that it can get detrimental... Itself is a disruptor, too -- think it's healthy to work out without regular sleep?
Nope. It's not advisable to workout when one skips sleep and I have days I skip sleep because of the same issue -- and almost everything I already mentioned.
I don't like my body.
I want to be healthier.
But **** this curse of a disease that no one takes seriously.
I'm a habitual walker, so that seem to be physically enough.
But not for my sensory needs and wanting to have gains, no.