I put this topic in this section of the forum because I don't think this is strictly autism-related.
I'm learning to drive and I've been having some problems that I didn't expect.
- "Zoning out". I'm driving along and I sort of become hypnotized, even in places that aren't typically hypnotic, like residential areas and intersections. My eyes stare straight ahead and I struggle to think about what's going on around me. Everything becomes sort of dream-like and unreal. I'm prone to derealization and depersonalization, so I think this is an extension of that. If this happens to me when I'm not driving, my instinct is to "disconnect" completely. If I were to do that while driving, it would be at great risk to myself and other driver's, because it becomes very hard to get my attention while I'm in that phase. This freaks me out the most.
- Panic attack. Strangely enough, this is actually the easiest thing for me to deal with. I focus on the road and the attack goes away before it has a chance to get really bad.
- Tics. Fidgeting, neck jerking, head shaking, hand flapping, shoulder shrugging, a little noise that sounds like "tht", and a number of other things make it difficult to concentrate. The tics are often accompanied by a pinching or poking sensation, which is ultimately more distracting than the tic itself.
- Directional sense. No, seriously. I can't tell left from right. I'll get my car positioned in the wrong lane. It's pretty embarassing, not to mention inconvenient when it comes to following directions.
- Attentional problems. This is probably the most obvious one. I can't seem to focus on lane position, speed, road conditions, signs, and the cars behind me, all at the same time. I drift back and forth in my lane, my speed fluctuates up and down, and I get pretty nervous about hitting something.
I get very anxious before driving because I'm afraid of hitting someone or something, and I know it's a very real possibility. Can anyone relate, or does anyone have suggestions to improve these problems? Any and all answers will be appreciated.
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