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Snowy Owl
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Joined: 11 May 2013
Age: 29
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06 Jun 2013, 7:55 pm

I don't have such a positive self esteem either.



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Deinonychus
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11 Jun 2013, 12:58 am

Negative self talk can be controlled, little by little, and replaced with positive things. I am working on that, and the more I do, the more I realize just how hard on myself I have been. It's fun and strengthens me to find good things to tell myself.

As far as a list of negatives I use, all of the above plus plus plus



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30 Nov 2017, 6:18 am

I was called names all day everyday all through high school and my dad called me names starting at the age of ten and he called me the same vile names as the kids did and so I didnt have any friends from pre school onward, I didnt have self esteem or self confidence because I felt worthless and I didnt fit in. I began my self destructive identity, one day I walked in the house from school with my head down to the floor with tears in my eyes I took my shoes and socks off and sat alone and told myself that I was those bad names and I started calling myself every bad name that everyone called me, I would call myself names over and over again for several hours and I actually believed that I was those names thirty minutes into my mantra. I had a new identity and so clearly I adopted those names and everytime someone calling me names I would respond to it, after a while I started to feel good about calling myself names and I started feeling good about them calling me names and when my dad call me a cocksucker every single time I actually identified with it that It was my name and so today I still call myself names and I don't like myself and I haven't ever since I was a kid and so I would always let people take advantage of me because when I was 12 years old I was bullied and it went on for four months all through high school and after that I just gave in and I just let them do whatever they wanted to do to me and I felt that I deserved it and so today I still call myself names.

Names others called me and myself

Dumbshit
Asswipe
Cocksucker
Nickeldick
Nick the dick
Nickelass
Dickless nicolas
fa***t
Fag
Gay
Fudge packer

Not every name I self identified with but most