AS and Schizophrenia.
Hello. I have been diagnosed with aspergers with schizo-spectrum several times. Im not quite sure where I am on the schizo-spectrum though because depending on the doc it changes between schizoaffective, schizophrenia, schizotypal and psychosis nos. Schizoaffective being the most common dx. For me it seems like the autism/schizophrenia mix creates a new diagnosis that's quite different from people who just have one of them. I've talked to other people with autism/schizophrenia and even that manifests quite differently between people. I bought a book a while ago about both conditions called the imprinted brain by Christopher Badcock. He has written several articles online about how people like us are creatively genious. John Nash was likely aspergers as well as schizophrenic and several other genious's have had traits of both. Personally I make music and write and do other types of creative work. Autism and schizophrenia have a lot of overlapping symptoms too and its sometimes hard to know which disorder causes what. It seems the ones that go away with medication are the schizophrenic symptoms. I've been taking meds consistently and they seem to be working pretty good to a point where I wonder if I no longer need them but that didn't go so well when I tried quitting them in the past. It also seems some of the symptoms cancel each other out such as I don't have a lot of the emotional problems other people have but at the same time I seem to have a double dose of negative symptoms. I also seem to think logically and abstract at the same time which makes me great at philosophizing. Feel free to message me if you would like.
I have been diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder bipolar type. I also have autism. Sometimes it gets bad and other times it is OK but not perfect. When it gets bad I get extremely paranoid, hear voices including command hallucinations telling me to hurt myself. Other people tell me I have delusions all the time. My parents and the doctors. Also people on the different boards I go to. My so called delusions according to my doctors is classified as bizarre delusions. In the DSM 4 that alone if it also interferes with getting a job and other functioning skills is enough for a diagnosis. But now we have the DSM 5 which bizarre delusions are not enough for a diagnosis. My voices are minor compared to other people with schizophrenia. Even during the tough times. Even though they are command hallucinations and sometimes they tell me about the future it is not continuous. Its just on and off during the day. Depending on how bad it is, sometimes I lose insight but if its mild symptoms I have a little insight into my condition. My speech at times is also incoherent and sometimes I write like that as well. Other times I go subject to unrelated subject. I went to my pdoc yesterday and she noticed that I do that. I have been visually hallucinating at times right now, but I don't know if its real or hallucinations. My delusions I am not going to get into here. Or what other people call delusions. I believe them strongly. Right now I can't recognize myself in the mirror, in fact the only part of me that I DO recognize is how fat I am. My face I don't recognize at all, it looks alien and once it looked like a monkey. Sometimes I see people melting. Right now I can't say anymore. There is a lot more that I can say later.
I can diagnose myself, its not that hard when you aren't on medication. I see things sometimes in a delusional sort of way, but my growing up has pretty much canned that in now so I would say that down to complex reasons and circumstances outside of my control, that I am affected more than I realise by others behaviours and actions towards me and other people. I like to engage in quiet chit chat from time to time with people you really know and understand me but reality is like a sinking ship, all it does it pull you down that until in time you are dragged to the mighty bottom. I know what I AM and what I aint, and it is not my fault for instance, that I can't work due to me getting stressed out over things no one else gets, and why is that so hard to get that just because you have some free time people automatically assume you are doing things at their expense? I don't give a s**t what anyone does let alone mind their own god dam business, because this is my life and if im stuck here in a country made up of immigrants that is the governments fault because people would have wanted them out of my country years ago, if it wasn't for this government sticking in their oars.
Stopping or cutting peoples benefits wont help make over the truth and clean up peoples lifestyles, they have to do that for themselves. Find that inner wisdom and let go of the pain and problems that others put them through. It s only when you realise how alone you are, that you truly appreciate what you have.
Kalinda
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I think I have Aspergers. I also have Bipolar and ADD. The three combined explain everything, lol. I'm spacey, intellectual, sometimes removed, and have heightened energy at times. I would like the bipolar label removed though. I can't get them to remove it. I am sick of being bipolar or wtv they want to call it.
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Your Aspie score: 159 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 61 of 200
You are very likely an Aspie
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