So why would anyone want to be bipolar?

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and aspergers ? an iq of 130 plus who cracks code and sells that information to the Iranian goverment for a million dollars

The media mostly portrays people on the spectrum as being fabulous computer whizzes,or card counters or plate spinners.There is no way to win.

thats why I don't trust the media esp so the gaming ones it's so obvious their living in the develepers pockets

I knew someone without a psychological diagnosis that said, "I'm jealous of the highs Bipolar people get." She stated she didn't have psychological problems severe enough to be an illness or disorder. So, she just randomly wanted mania. It was pretty odd, especially because there's a reason Bipolar people end up doing drugs, drinking, gambling, and having unsafe sex. These often happen when the person is manic. I have no idea what people think mania feels like, but it's not the kind of feeling when you have a really good day. I suspect people confuse this with the "high" of mania.

She also said, "Well, you may have intense depression, but at least you have the opposite to look forward to." As if mania is SO MUCH BETTER than that intense depression. Ugh.

They miss out the part where you destroy your life, because you're out of control. You're confident about everything, but there's no boundaries. Everything will succeed.

Then there's always dysphoric mania. I wonder how people would like that.

The stereotype of people with aspergers is people who are, as you say, super-intelligent computer genius's who can hack into the FBI database with ease. Whereas the media (and the news) makes bipolar people out to be ultra-creative, successful rockstars.

The reality is that there is people with ASD's and people with bipolar that struggle to function in normal, daily tasks such as grocery shopping.

Quite. In addition to my Asperger's I have bipolar disorder - presenting as unipolar mania, fortunately I don't really suffer from depressive periods - and if I could just have the euphoria which went wit a manic high I'd never bother with treatment for my bipolar as the only comparable feeling I've ever experienced has come from consuming significant quantities of MDMA in a session. Unfortunately, it almost always progresses, usually fairly rapidly, to fullblown acute psychosis and every single time it results in me being hospitalised.

The longest I've been hospitalised is for twenty-six months during which I had a psychotic mixed-state episode that lasted for several months despite being on the highest available dose of respiradal consta. Even taking additional quantities of of halperidol and lorzepam did nothing whatsoever to diminish the symptoms or my suffering. For anybody who has ever experienced a bad trip, just imagine that but worse with no sign whatsoever that it will ever end.

Anyone who says they actually want that is deluding themselves.

Yeah, I'm kind of over having bipolar. The anxiety turns to paranoia pretty quickly. The mania is short lived and I just end up being weird. I have a great idea about writing something and I just write it without thinking and then it's something I can't use because it's so weird and delusional. My drawing skills are still average even when manic. I think mania just makes me want to do it.

The time wasting, the over spending, the unnecessary arguments, the loss of friends, the obsessive thinking (usually about people), the self-doubts, suicidal thoughts and then changing my mind how I feel about it once I do become the good euphoric manic again.

I don't know how people see insanity but my mixed states are like the closest I've come.

would it be right to assume anxiety would be eay to manage than depression eg can't wait to get that air con , stupid dumb family when i was young got me a "humdifier " to help my breathing which would have made anxiety worse, why on earth would they do such a thing when they didn't know what they where treating ? many thought I was a attention seaker anyways , a fraud.


Anxiety= great need for cool dry air

They're ignorant. They know nothing about bipolar disorder.

When I saw a new psychiatrist recently, after I told her about my extreme depression, she asked if I ever had any manic episodes. I said "no, but I wish I did," or something like that. She gave me a weird look and I felt kind of stupid afterwards, but the truth is that being dead inside and not getting enjoyment out of anything and having no ambition is a living hell. Your description of your bipolar also sounds like a living hell, so I guess that's all relative. Granted, lately I've had some "psychotic episodes" where God showed me how awesome life could be if I was able to overcome my illnesses, and it was a fantastic feeling, however that went away and I crashed back to my normal disposition of feeling super negative and hopeless, and I had almost wished I didn't get that "glimpse into the future."

Sounds like we both experience Hell on Earth, just different versions of it. I'd be offended too if someone said they wished they could experience major depression for some reason, but no one says that.

The simple reason is people are ignorant.

who says this? as the great Margret Thatcher said to George Negus who are these people give me their names, ie regarding her being a cow moooo well in fact it was for being accused of being difficult. pig headed one and the same really.

The problem is it isn't like it's just you having this amazingly awesome day and you're so happy with life and the world. It's like being on a super high you just want to come down from. You have all these grandiose ideas and plans and you HAVE to do them RIGHT NOW. Your mind is racing, you can't sit down, you can't sleep, you can't stop talking. You can't keep up with the thoughts running thru your head. You spend too much money, you talk way too much, you make way too many plans. You do all these things and honestly, you're not enjoying them, your body/mind is forcing you to do these things and you cannot make yourself stop no matter how hard you want to. When you finally pass out from sheer exhaustion somewhere like 4 or 5 in the morning, you wake up the next day and feel so useless and drained and miserable and are the most depressed you've ever felt and can't even manage to make it out of bed. You see all these things that need to be done, you want to get up and LIVE but you cannot force yourself to move.

At least that's how my life is and how it feels to me. My manic phases result in a lot being done and I ride them out and end up with a super clean, super organized house and all these plans that seemed so awesome when I was on that high but when it ends I spend days not being able to function so it negates all I've done during the manic phase. It feels like a constant hole I'm climbing out of and back into.

I've been asked by two psychiatrists this year if I've ever been diagnosed as being bipolar. I told them no. I mean, I'm currently on Risperdal which is used for the treatment of psychosis due to bipolar symptoms, but in my case, it's used just for the depressive phase alone.

I've never experienced the manic phase, the constant high, the extremely jubilant mood that I can conquer the world and everyone in it. I've seen the manic phase in others, though. I wouldn't want to climb up on that high horse. I can just imagine what falling flat on my face after that high would feel like.

In my experience it does feel good until it turns into dyphoria and all I think is rage rage rage or I worry about the depression hitting. Sometimes if I really want to avoid over spending and just coming off as really weird to my friends and a speed addict to strangers, I would try and suppress it and fail.
I can relate to going to bed really early in the morning and being completely drained the next day.

Although, I still don't have a diagnosis yet. My doctor says it's all because I have AS.