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That's awful! Can you seek a counselor or someone qualified w/ ways to help? Maybe you should get rid of your sinks! And just use hand sanitizer, b/c then you'll have no sinks to tempt you...and you'll go crazy at first but then it'll get better? Like an extinction burst..?

i doubt it's that simple.. i use hand sanitiser every day and only wash with sinks when i feel i have to, ie having been to the lavatory/bathroom. i never 'want' to nowadays.. i'm seeing a 'social worker' about it and general mental health , i've recently been prescribed sertraline, an ssri anti-depressant also licensed for ocd but so far have been scared to take it as i have little support day-to-day and worry i might not cope, not that i really 'cope' now as such. if/when i do take it i may get CBT which i've been asking for, for many years.
i've also just this week applied for a specialist college for students with disabilities.. hoping that will 'save' me, naive maybe..
i wasn't always like this, i can remember times up to maybe 3 and half years ago and anytime before that when the thought of germs didn't really bother me.. i know because i acted very differently, i can't actually remember what it felt like.
would've replied sooner but i had to... wash my hands lol
thanks whoever made this thread, i've read loads of posts about AS but very rarely find people with OCD is good to see it included.
anyways sorry for the wall o'text.

Goodluck w/ everything--I'll pray at least one of those things helps! One of my most destructive OCD things I've done since I was little and don't even remember is pulling out my eyelashes. Ugh, I hate it, and can nowadays usually fight the urge...for a little while...but then the night I can't, I end up looking weird of course, b/c they don't "feel right"...totally unexplainable. I also pick my face for at least an hour almost every night...til it's bleeding and swollen. I have lots of these "self cleaning make me better" rituals...aaaaggravating indeed.

Yes, I'm officially diagnosed with OCD (Pure-O type). It almost lead to my self-demise. I was prescribed up to 200mg Luvox. That dosage was too strong for me, and I went all funny, eventually leading me to attempt suicide (as well ). But the dosage was dropped, and I'm seeing a Psychologist doing CBT, and now I feel much, much better. .

OCD is one of these conditions that is 100% rat$hit; it has no silver lining, and nobody will ever have a want or need for it. The condition makes you think things that cripple your conscience, and do things that eliminate your inner peace.

Strangely enough, my OCD started at around 12 or 13, at the start of puberty. Coincidentally, most of my obsessions were either of extreme violence or of sexual perversions. These thoughts were streaming into my brain gradually, sneaking up from behind; since I knew nothing about the nature of these thoughts ("poor insight"), I followed mental routines such as avoidance and distraction. This worked for a while, but this mental blocking tired me, and the thoughts come back as soon as the routine stops.

The fear, doubt and disturbances I had experienced, starting from 12yo up until four months ago, was nothing short of demonic.

White Raven:

So interesting thing to bring up--granted, I know many people don't beleive in demons and such, but I'm a Christian and def. def. DEF. do--what are your thoughts on that more in depthly? Demons/OCD and or neg. crap life throws ya, and so forth. And I suppose OCD could have it's positives for some people like one of you said, but I know for me it's gotta be at least 99% awful and I'd LOVE to not have it/struggle w/ it!

KSea

That is quite an observation -yes I'm Christian.

What I mean about my OCD being demonic, is that the obsessions that appeared in my head follow very closely to what the Bible says about the behavior of the Demons.

Early in Genesis, it described these spirit creatures as originally angels having "noticed" that the "daughters of men" were "good looking". So, they materialized into a physical state (presumably in the form of human men), and then took, and married, as many of these 'good-lookers' as they desired. This, of course, is what was contrary to their original purpose; these spirits were not meant to have physical relations with women, because they were not human; besides this, they weren't meant to have sexual relations at all. The point in all of this, is that the obsessions that I had experienced, reflected the unnatural sexual desires and devious intent of the Demons (they, after all, appeared to be as something to these women that they weren't).

My obsessions have also reflected the violent nature of the Demons. According to the Bible, they persecuted people by possessing and controlling them, causing them to violently hurt themselves and others; on occasions, they inflicted diseases on their targets (i.e. Job), and made them speak profane (vulgar) and blasphemous things (telling lies against God), as well as do other nasty stuff, like involuntarily prostitute themselves (Mary Magdalene) and speak accurate predictions in behalf of powerful gambling rackets (without any benefits to themselves, of cause - Acts 16:16). There was even a time when a legion (1000!) these evil creatures transferred themselves from a single man, into a herd of pigs; they possessed all of the pigs, and made them jump off a cliff, to their deaths (the evil spirits survived - they can't physically die)

So in conclusion, I tell you (at the very least) that the Demons described in the Bible are bad news - they're violent, sexually perverse, speak lies against God (their own Father), and they torture and kill both humans and animals for cheap thrills.

So this is what I mean about my OCD - the obsessions reflect the nature of the Demons, and that is why I hate it so much!

KSea and WhiteRaven, I completely agree with the demonic nature of OCD. I was just saying the other day that I bet people have had exorcisms because of OCD.

::nods:: I agree demons can "oppress" Christians but I don't believe they can "possess" Christians. And I think b/c of sin and living in a fallen world it's just part of it--and it's all one big spiritual battlefield. Def. makes you wonder what "afflictions" and thorns in the side the disciples and others dealt w/ back in the day.

I have OCD, I am FAR more obsessive than compulsive.

Hi. I have had severe OCD diagnosed 6 years ago.

Yes, full-blown OCD.

Medication + CBT helped a lot. I used to spend most of the day washing my hands. Now, I only do such when required for hygiene. I still obsess a lot over things I don't want to obsess over, which causes distress, but I can't seem to "fix" this part of the disorder.

I have really bad ocd.

I have clean obsession. I wash my hands very often (it's ok, but I have Raynaud's) and I brush my teeth often too. I find most people and food dirty and stinky. It may be connected with my hypersensitive smell and taste.