LaughingPianist wrote:
Aside from Aspergers, I am currently hospitalized for depression and anxiety after several months of self-mutilation and suicidal ideation, and was diagnosed just yesterday with borderline personality disorder. Which I find deeply distressing because all my life my mother has been telling me horrible stories about her borderline peers in a mood disorder chat group she participates in. And now I see that many of these horrible stories apply to me, and this further augments the intensity of my chronic self-loathing (which, in itself, is a symptom of BPD). I've done a bit of research but haven't read anything particularly encouraging yet. If anybody knows anything good about borderline personality disorder, please let me know. Thanks.
I have both AS and Bpd also, although I am not 100% in agreement with my own bpd diagnosis as it was made during a very rough time in my life, when I was 21 and was primarilly based on self harm and being suicidal and anorexic. I do not think those things alone make a bpd diagnosis. However, my suggestion is that you do not dwell on the label and the negative stories about it...it will drive you insane and not help at all. I personally think most humans have some borderline traits there anyway, it is often a label just thrown onto anyone who is particularly difficult. I do not have enough issues that I would even be classed as such anymore. I have difficulty dealing with conflict and confusion, and my emotional responses can be very extreme and intense, and I suffer a bit of trust issues, but aside from that, it has faded away.
The best thing you can do is ignore the books and message boards, and simply work on yourself in your own time by focussing on where your problems lay, what their source is, and working on different ways of thinking and reacting.
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