1. Social phobia - which is much better now, but it's a work-in-progress really; it won't just go away completely.
2. Agoraphobia (although I can go out every day now, but I used to stay inside for weeks or months at a time)
3. Major depressive disorder - only diagnosed three or four years ago, despite it being observable since I was much younger. But I grew up with someone who was very ignorant of mental illness, so it was never spoken about, even with the clinical psychologist I saw when I was 14.
4. Motor dysgraphia - my handwriting is basically one big mass of being unable to distinguish between a written lowercase "s" and a written lowercase "g" unless I really concentrate, I cross a lot of Ls instead of crossing the Ts, have to write at a funny angle and generally experience a lot of strain in my wrist when I do have to write large amounts. I try to stick to my own laptop too - I can't type properly on other keyboards, even ones with the same layout as my own. I even throw pens at people every single time I have a lesson in college. There's a lot of other stuff going on with it, but those are my main issues at this time in my life.
I'm also claustrophobic. It sounds ridiculous, when you think about it, but small, enclosed spaces make me panic - I'll walk up five flights of stairs at college and be half dead at the end of it, just to avoid the lifts. I don't like rooms without windows. Even when my agoraphobia was really bad, I still needed a window. When it does flare though, I do sometimes sit in the bathroom (no windows) with the lights off - thankfully, however, it doesn't happen too often these days. I quite like going out. Claustrophobia is the bigger issue.
My depression is all over the place at the minute. I'll go weeks needing every single minute of sleep I can get, and then I'll get so enthusiastic for life and not want to sleep (although I do, but I sleep so much less) and just do productive and stimulating things all day and all night, whilst all the time remaining somewhat irritable. I've had a counsellor suggest type 2 bipolar disorder this week, but I don't know. I'm worried about bipolar, because I'd probably have to start taking meds (I hate taking pills of any variety) so things don't get the chance to escalate again. I've been reading about hypomania and it sounds scarily like what I experienced prior to my last "proper" depressive episode.
I'm going to be assessed for autism at the end of this month, and I'm hoping the team I'm seeing will also be able to assess me for ADHD (inattentive type). I hate labels, but sometimes we need them - especially if we need accommodations at school/college or work.
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Studying psychology, criminology and sociology at college. Want to study forensic psychology at university, and work with offenders and the victims of crime during the court process.
I walk into doors, fall off chairs, trip over my own feet and throw pens at people without really meaning to.
Tutors suspect dyspraxia, I suspect an extreme inability to go unnoticed. We all agree on dysgraphia, however.
Autism assessment coming in late October.
Politically right, but open to other viewpoints. Not a pain in the neck Conservative voter.
Functionalist at heart, but quite like studying Marx.