I am very confused if I am innocent or not

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15 Feb 2021, 1:56 pm

Thank you, I understood.

Even my parents said that I never killed anyone, but this scary dream or hallucination to better call it, it made me feel paranoid, depressed and guilty. It felt so real and I can't grasp if it was true or not.

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15 Feb 2021, 2:07 pm

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I would find a therapist to talk with.

Be careful with talking with the police too much.

I would seek legal counsel before doing so if you can and speak through your lawyer as much as possible.

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15 Feb 2021, 2:08 pm

Thank you, I understood.

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15 Feb 2021, 3:00 pm

FranzOren wrote:

I am embarrassed and I was too afraid to share this and I feel like I can't keep it to myself anymore.

I am a very confused if I am truly innocent or not. I also once had a very scary hallucination that I committed a very serious crime against someone.

It is very scary and it felt so real to the point where I have a very hard time to stop believing the hallucination that I had.

I told my family about this and they said that I am innocent.

But I still tend to believe that hallucination that I once had, despite the evidence of the contrary.

My dad explained to me if that was the case I would be in prison, jail or mental institution by now. But then again, I still have hard time grasping if what I truly saw was actually not true.

I am sorry, I feel embarrassed.

I agree with your father. I don't believe you did such a thing, else you would have been punished. I don't have hallucinations myself, but I have read about how all too real they can seem.

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15 Feb 2021, 3:04 pm

Thank you, I understood.

I feel bad for disagreeing with him and my family as well. it's just felt so real as to where to believe my thoughts or them.

I hope that I feel much better soon.

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15 Feb 2021, 3:15 pm

FranzOren wrote:

Thank you, I understood.

I feel bad for disagreeing with him and my family as well. it's just felt so real as to where to believe my thoughts or them.

I hope that I feel much better soon.

I can understand that. I hope you feel better soon too.

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15 Feb 2021, 3:17 pm

Thank you!

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15 Feb 2021, 3:51 pm

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15 Feb 2021, 4:30 pm

FranzOren wrote:

Thank you!

It's just if it was okay if I can talk to police officers because I felt scared and feel like a very confused man. As there are also police officers who respond to mental health crisis.

But I understood why it is better to talk to my psychiatrist about it.

I also think that I might have milder form of Schizophrenia, because I had this hallucination from my early childhood and I still feel paranoid about it and believe it to this day.

I would certainly stick with talking to mental health professionals and your family about this, no need to talk to the police I'd actually advise against that. They tend not to be very helpful to people with mental health issues. People of minority ethnicities and people with mental health issues statistically face more abuse from police.

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15 Feb 2021, 4:34 pm

Thank you!

But it's hard though, because there are police officers who help people with mental health issues. But I understood, I will just talk to my psychiatrist about it.

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16 Feb 2021, 10:40 am

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FranzOren wrote:

I will say some police departments can be better then others BUT unless you know about your local one don’t talk to them all the time.

UNLESS you have something to report that concerns your safety or others safety.

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16 Feb 2021, 10:49 am

Thank you, I understood.

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16 Feb 2021, 11:05 am

FranzOren wrote:

Thank you, I understood.

Just making sure!!

It’s good that you are posting here.

If anything I say offends you let me know!!

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16 Feb 2021, 11:29 am

FranzOren wrote:

It sounds to me as though you were in a hypnotic trance state.
I have been there and sometimes wonder what was real and what wasn't when I think back.

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16 Feb 2021, 11:33 am

Thank you, I understood.

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16 Feb 2021, 11:37 am

FranzOren wrote:

Thank you!

I also have another question.

Is it normal that I can understand the legal consensuses of my actions?

I can understand the legal consensuses of my actions, even though I am psychotic.

I only have paranoia that I did something very bad to someone because of my hallucination that I once had, but other than that I can function and be aware of myself in most areas.

It's just that when I was fifteen years old, I was completely deranged with delusions and hallucinations for one month when I was fifteen years old.

I improved a lot sense then.

BTW, If someone is psychotic, they aren't responsible for their actions.
Most people don't like to hear that, but it doesn't change the fact that: If you aren't responsible, you aren't responsible.

It sounds like you were simply hallucinating. [shrug]

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