Does anyone have anything besides AS? Share your story
Have much of the same thing - my issues are OCD, general anxiety, severe depression and, according to one doctor, mild ADD (non-hyperactive). I had panic attacks pretty badly until my mid-20s, and for some reason they stopped altogether by the time I was 25. I have good ol' meltdowns now, losing it completely until sometime the next day, when I calm down again. Fortunately, these are few and far between. For some reason, the old I've gotten, the worse the meltdowns. Don't know why. I can't handle stress as much as I used to when I was younger. I have myriad physical health problems, too, and those don't help, either.
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Chronic depression. I don't think I could have a normal job as most days it takes me too long to get up. Without someone to help me I'm never on time. I also get bored too easily and feel like life is generally sh*tty and 99% unrewarding. Add ANY stress on top of that and I start feeling suicidal. I might need ECT since antidepressants don't work for me.
I think if I just had AS without the depression I would feel so much more normal. My AS is mild in some ways but I'm not sure if I'll ever know how well I really can function because the depression stops me from trying. I just don't have motivation for social activities, people, or things I consider too dull/mundane but that people nonetheless expect from me. Special interests are probably the only things that keep me from wanting to commit suicide. Without that my life is empty.
OCD
Panic Disorder
Generalized Anxiety Disorder
AVNRT
Tinnitus
Migraines
Had Gastric Reflux; had surgery for that (worked, if a little too good)
Got some bullet fragments in my abdomen
Chronic Prostatitis (nonbacterial)
I technically have Autistic Disorder though instead of AS.
O yeah, Antisocial PD too; I think it's a misdiagnosis, personally.
O again, add PTSD to that list too.
It took the best part of about ten years, but after being bounced around various medical professionals, I've been diagnosed with schizoaffective (bipolar type).
I haven't had an episode of mania for a while - I think my last major episode of mania was in 2007, although I probably had some moments of hypomania here and there. Mood-wise, my main issue is depression. My depressions would last around three months and accompanying it would be fatigue, apathy and suicidal ideation.
Psychosis-wise, I get delusions and auditory hallucinations. My last episode was in June-July this year when I was convinced that my psychiatrist was trying to kill me. Luckily I eventually developed the insight to realise that it wasn't true and my current medication combo is helping to control my symptoms.
In the past, I've experienced delusions such as thought broadcasting, believing that people were inserting derogatory messages about me through text, believing that malevolent spirits were monitoring me and the belief I could control people and events through mind control.
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Along with Asperger's, I have anxiety (officially diagnosed). At around fifth grade, I started having tightness in my chest and legs, as well as certain fears and phobias. I have really bad episodic depression (my mom doesn't think it's Bipolar), and I tend to have outbursts of it, mostly involving me wanting others to hurt me. It scares other people, and it scares me because I don't want it to happen to me. I am, however, prone to experience hypomania, as well as normal moods and states, but they're rapid-cycling, so it could be teenage hormones.
I have really bad perfectionism that started ever since I've learned to read (about three and a half, so that must have been real fun for my parents!). I don't know why, really!
-LD-NOS
-Mathematics Disorder
-Major Depression
-Dysthymic Disorder
-Schizotypal Personality Disorder
-Borderline Personality Disorder
More specifically...I fit the general NVLD profile, but officially received the
LD-NOS/Mathematics disorder DX-es since NVLD isn't a formally recognized
mental disorder.
My IQ/neuropsych results are no different than those of millions of
people with NVLD/AS.
But....I believe there are some very profound things wrong with my brain
which most people with NVLD/AS don't share.
Things which all the neuropsych evals/IQ tests have failed to pick up
on. For one thing....I believe I have some very severe long-term memory
impairments. There is reason to believe that long-term memory problems
can be overlooked by the conventional neuropsychological memory tests
and this article makes a pretty good case for that IMO:
http://brain.oxfordjournals.org/cgi/con ... /123/3/472
Anyway...my situation is extremely complicated and though some here
may disagree with me, equally unique. I have described it before countless
times on WP to the best of my abilities. That said....I really don't feel like
saying much more about it now.
I'm glad you have found some success in school and elsewhere OP.
I'm 40 y/o and i've never been fully financially independent of my family.
In forty years....I haven't managed to aquire one skill related to academics,
vocations, or anything involving hobbies, talents, (which are nonexistent....
don't let anyone feed you that sentimental crap about "everyone being
good at something". I'm living proof that some people suck at EVERYTHING)
or special interests.
All this and I scored 143 on the most recent professionally-administered IQ
I had.
Something is very, very wrong with this picture indeed and what's worse
is that I have no clear idea what it is. All I have are a million theories and
no conclusions.
So let's just say success of anykind has eluded me my entire life. Some
may blame my attitude or something else unrelated any actual neurological
impairments. After forty years of self-observation, i'd have to beg to differ
with these people as much as I WANT to believe they're right.
After all....."attitude" seems alot easier to change than profound hard-wired
neurological impairments which occured sometime during my development.
So this is "what I have aside from AS" OP (though I was never formally Dx-ed
with AS, many professionals believe NVLD and AS are one and the same
disorder. Even if they're not....the two disorders are similar enough.)
I have roughly three pounds of an enigmatic, undefined, hell inside
my skull. Hell "Not otherwise specified".
Update:
I was recently (In June) dx-ed with Schizoid Personality Disorder (with Schizotypal and Avoidant features) after undergoing the sixth neuropsychological evaluation of my life.
I have believed for a long time that the features of Schizoid pd fit me better than those of Schizotypal. I still have not received an official AS dx, but my overall neurocognitive profile is still indicative of NLD/NVLD.
In fact.....the discrepancy between my verbal and performance scores was wider than it's ever been at 57 points. I obtained a score of 136 on the Verbal Comprehension index and 79 on the Perceptual-Organizational index. The verbal score was the second-highest i've ever received (I scored 155 verbal in previous WAIS I took in 2006) and the performance/POI score was the absolute lowest i've ever received. I've scored as high as 111 (high average) on performance and that was on the same test I scored 155 on verbal in 2006. Thus....my full-scale IQ was 143 in 2006 and it was only 104 on this recent WAIS. So I was a genius in 2006 and now i'm just of average intelligence ......j/k.
Seriously though, my FSIQ wasn't 51 points lower this time around merely because both my verbal and performance scores were lower. The WAIS I took in 2006 was the WAIS-III as the WAIS-IV was released in 2008. On the WAIS-IV, they have increased the loading of the processing speed and working memory index scores when calculating the full scale IQ.
While my working memory index score on this most recent WAIS was 111, my processing speed index score was 86. Therefore....the latter score contributed to large decline in my FSIQ scores between 2006 and 2010. Needless to say....this doesn't mean there's been any decrease in my actual cognition. It simply means I did better on the IQ test in 2006 than I did on this recent one.
Beyond this.....there were no significant changes in my diagnoses on the recent neuropsych eval.
I still received the LD-NOS dx on Axis-I since NLD/NVLD is not a formally accepted mental disorder.
Some possibly because of bad genes, others possibly because I was exposed to agent orange as a young child.
hale_bopp, if you don't mind me asking, how did you get exposed to agent orange as a young child?
Wow, I feel better knowing that other people besides me have multiple comorbidities!
For me it is:
Anxiety: GAD, OCD, dermatillomania (skin picking when I'm stressed out), shyness/some social anxiety (last one isn't "official" diagnosed condition)
Mood: Dysthymia and a few several-month periods of more severe depression; mood swings (wondered if I was Bipolar at one point, but I don't think so...)
Developmental: Asperger's (duh), ADHD-inattentive type
Physical: Allergies, food sensitivities
I also have synesthesia and hyperlexia, but I think those are actually good things...
Other than the AS, I also have ADHD (combined type--I was hyper as a kid, just kinda fidgety now) and chronic depression, with multiple episodes of major depression (one right now unfortunately) and PTSD because of being abused as a child. Physically I have epilepsy and migraines as well. Fortunately the epilepsy is under good control and the migraines are improving a bit lately.
~Kate
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I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder, GAD, and OCD before I was diagnosed with AS, and ADD-inattentive type shortly thereafter. I doubt the depression though, as I'm actually very happy when not in social situations.
Healthwise: Environmental and food allergies, chronic headaches from ages 11-21/22 (which went away after the allergy and mental diagnosis'). I've got peanut and soy allergies which makes eating on a budget hard, and I'm allergic to many types of trees, grasses, cats, and some produce. I had asthma for a few weeks though I don't have it anymore as I know now that the SOB and chest pain were just panic attacks...allergists don't know anything...
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