Bipolar/Aspergers support and chat thread

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the best thing that can come out of it you soon realise who your so called friends and family are at least their not getting stuck in to you , disgusting.

hi guys
i'm not sure if this is the place for me to ask this, so please forgive me if i'm in the wrong forum.

i am currently 20 years old and diagnosed with aspergers. but in one week i will be going to a psychiatrist to be assessed for a mental health/ mood disorder. i think that bipolar is likely a possibility. is there any thing i should or shouldn't say? what kind of questions would i be asked? as i'm really nervous about the assessment.

thanks

I haven't really been through a proper assessment yet but I would give examples of what happens during the various moods, how long they last and how they impact your life negatively.

Sorry I can't be of more use. I hope your assessment goes well and you get the right treatment you need.

I'm hypomanic again. I'm trying to deny the thoughts I have during depression. I've been pretty good at leaving arguments and stopping negative thoughts. And for the past couple of hours I've put my energy all into writing blog notes that explain the social difficulties that come from autism/ADHD/bipolar and I'm trying to talk about borderline now but I still don't know enough. I suspect I may have it but it may be more pathologically demand avoidance because I've been this way since childhood. I'm trying to show people how they react to the symptoms too.

I'll be continuing that tomorrow.

Then I'm going to see bands on Wednesday and Friday. I really need to tell my sister I can't photograph her exhibition on Thursday because I may be knackered. But who knows with all this increase in energy. I'll try not to overdo it.

Hmm. Midnight. Wonder if I will sleep.

stay off the booze 1 week on one week off to have it 100 % confirmed.

This depressive episode is lasting way to long. I don't know how long I've had it for now. It feels like forever, but it's been way to long. I look over some of the stuff I wrote when I was manic. And I miss it. I wish I was happy like that. I wish I felt like a god like that. I wish I felt powerful. I know it gets out of control but I miss that crazy energy and that feeling of invincibility and just...energy. I miss it.

Dysphoric hypomania today. Not much I can say but shut up thoughts, stop being so loud and angry!

I'm trying to avoid getting into another screaming match with my sister.
I'm trying to deny thoughts that tell me people probably don't really care about me, or like me at all.

Yet I keep thinking about not thinking about doing these things. Hmm.

exercise ! even if you can barely make it out of bed! "being lazy" only made a horrendous situation that much worse

Wishing my manic depression would simply just...stop, you know? I wish there was an off switch. I'm honestly getting pretty pissed off with the many people in my family beginning a sentence with "I know it's hard, but you could-"

STOP

No, you do not f*****g know how hard it is for me.

I asked for help. I tried to control it. I got told there was nothing wrong with me and had what meds I was on cut. That sent me spiralling downwards, and I looked for other ways to control it. That led to it getting worse in the long run. All because I was f*****g told there was nothing wrong with me and refused any help and yet supposed to be f*****g in control.

So what? I didn't walk into CAMHS with my wrists sliced open? f*****g hell, I was overdosing on a regular basis and you knew that. I was awake three days on end and working twenty four hours straight before crashing into not bothering to leave bed, all whilst overdosing to lower the highs and raise me up when I was in a low mood. I have now, thanks to the many overdoses, f****d up my stomach to the point that eating is becomming a problem.

I don't want to f*****g feel something, as I'm told is why people cut themselves. I felt emotion. I felt highs and lows. I wanted to feel nothing because they were extreme and I couldn't handle them.

I hate it when people tell me the mental health service is there to help. Theyre not. They don't f*****g help.

No-ones talking to me currently. I pissed them all off. And I don't know how. Supposedly, I'm using this illness as an excuse. And I should therefore be getting on my knees and begging for f*****g forgiveness over and f*****g over again.

I'm not just gonna "get better". Bipolar is for life. And it sucks.

I have type 2 bipolar disorder meaning I run a more mixed state, Asperger's which is different for everyone, anxiety disorder which sucks ass, and ADD.
.......that list is really depressing.

( I also have a math disorder, let that be the icing on the mentally f****d up cake )

Weirdly enough my life is not that bad. I have people who understand,especially my mom, she is bipolar too. The rest of my family doesn't really get it but they don't think I am crazy or anything. I don't think I would have even made it this far without my mom. It is godsend to have someone who completely understands. I have also been medicated since I was seven or eight so that helps a lot! Considering how bad things could have been and still could be I am pretty lucky to say the least.

booze ain't going to help the ill effects from it may not kick in till much latter I learned that the hard way (after being medicated I worked it out )

You learn something new every day , it's been scientifically proven changes in barometric pressure exacerbates anxiety in humans and animals and you can't argue with science unless your Tony Abbot! I tell you what New Zealand holds some appeal cool and gloomy all year round , though I'm not sure if I could handle living in a 3 rd world nation. Melbourne I've always wanted to live though they say it's like having 4 seasons in one day so that's a no go zone .

And your right Sunshower Sydney sucks I think you said your from Melbourne

I know barometric pressure changes affect my moods. That's good news about Melbourne. The only place I want to live.

My good hypomania is beginning to change. I've got another gig to shoot tonight and I've been very nervous about it. I'm in a hugely agitated state that I'm really not sure if I should keep talking to people online.