OCD Support Thread

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I suppose, Data. There's nothing like "being out there in the world."

But I also believe one can learn lots about people when one is on WrongPlanet. The variety of people here run the gamut.

And you can learn lots about all sorts of disorders here, too. You have people here who are almost experts in them---if not actual experts.

Phew, Im not the only one who's seen true colors. Change the word 'counted' to conned.

This thread makes me so nervous, now. It was one of the few places on the forum where I could find solace. I make a lot of mistakes, as it is. so to come here and realize there's two stampy's with similar names. I didnt pick that up right away. This isnt a safe place for my mind any longer. There is no order to this thread. Evil people are being encouraged to come here. There are so many red flags, but, everyone ignores them. How?

I'm sorry. Im not staying silent, anymore.

I hope I continue to cross paths with you in other threads, Stampy, and thank you for this thread. I don't want to seem ungratefulIt. It helped me, tremendously and you have been a wonderful friend.

Britte, there aren't two Stampy's! We changed the code on the quotes to make it look like I said that, but I promise I really didn't.

It's okay to leave this thread if you want, but just know we were having fun playing with code, and there isn't really another Stampy here on WP. I'll miss you, and hopefully I will talk to you soon !

Brit, wait, what? That was a joke, a pun on StampySquiddyFan's username so that everyone would know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I had made up my quote for her.

Kraftie, yes, you're right of course. That doesn't take away my need to get clients and work on projects though. And I did make a phone call and deal with some emails after I wrote my last message.

Britte
I know that you have more anxiety online than IRL and I'm sorry if I added to it in any way , we were just messing around being childish because I find it a good distraction.

That's true, Data. Your work is your priority. No doubt about that.

I was not expecting anyone but Britte to respond while I waited to see if she was available to talk. Unfortunately Stampy responded before I had a chance to close a question not meant to be answered by anyone but Britte so I could validate her feelings and remove her doubt. It honestly has been a series of unfortunate events and misunderstandings. We are all good friend.

I hope Britte comes back.

No harm was ever meant for her.

I didn't even know exposure therapy existed and I don't think it would have worked with me. All it does is gives me more anxiety because for one I didn't like the house being a mess and it had to be clean before I can relax and two, I can't just leave things unanswered because it doesn't help me out at all. My mom told me a story about when I was still living with them when my brothers were still in high school, they started to just pay me to do chores and then I always looked forward to messes so I would clean it up and get spending money. I don't even remember and I have always been paid for chores as long as I can remember. It was when my brothers started to follow my rules and compromise is what made me better because I was more relaxed. I guess OCD therapy doesn't work for everyone with that diagnoses because you have to know where their OCD comes from. I can't relate to intrusive thoughts or just right stuff and other things OCDers talk about so it makes me wonder about my own diagnoses. I liked the house clean because I just did, not because I worried or because I thought something bad would happen or because it didn't feel right. Lot of people don't like messy homes anyway and I just took it to a different level than most people and even my own aunt who isn't even OCD doesn't like crumbs on the counter and also wants dishes in the dishwasher or in the sink depending on if the dishwasher is full or not. I followed her rules when I lived with her so I can't understand how hard it was for my whole family to follow mine since mine wasn't that much different than my aunt's. Also there seemed to be some TOM issues from the stories my mother was telling me like I would dump out her coffee thinking it was just left there because I would have taken it with me if I was having a drink so how was I supposed to know my mom only left hers there for a minute while she pees or answers the door or left the room to get something?

Plus I also get worried thoughts and when something upsets me, I have a hard time moving on and it distracts me at work too if there is even a work incident and I like to try and figure things out and understand them but I also see this in ASD too. Like Caitlin in Mockingbird, she gets stuck on the word closure I think it was and she thinks a lot about that word and tries to figure it out what it is and how you get it and that sounded like my thinking there but of course my mom would call it OCD. But what if this got treated as a compulsion for, it wouldn't be helpful. If I have had OCd therapy before in my teens, no wonder it failed.

I wish I was good at cleaning the house as you are.

I don't know why I can't be good at it.....

Oh god, what mess have I started? There are so many misunderstandings here on this thread. I'm so sorry to Britte for causing all the confusion. I'm busy at the moment, but I will be back later to attempt to sort this out.

I'm an idiot !

You were just making a joke.

Nothing wrong with jokes. People sometimes get upset. In that case, you should listen to that person and perhaps apologize.

But don't keep yourself from joking in the future.

I'm a joker, myself. And I ain't gonna stop joking!

No worries, I have made jokes on here in the past and they would also be taken the wrong way because that person thought I was poking fun at other members than just making a joke. One time a user here pointed out how there are contradictions about asking if this is an aspie thing and pretty soon someone will ask if talking too much is an aspie thing. So I started a new thread asking that question and saying how I wear out my vocal cords because I tend to talk too long when going on trips with my husband and I would wear them out with my ex and when I mentioned the whole thread was a joke because it was a parody from someone's post and linking to that post, someone took it the wrong way thinking I was making fun of that person. That newbie thought this place was toxic and thought members all poked fun at each other than it being a support forum as it claimed.

Sometimes we all make a joke and it backfires. There was another time I posted a humor thread on another forum and it got me put on moderated status and the other person banned because they thought I was trolling and thought the other person put me up to it. I felt responsible for that person's banning and they never uplifted it while they uplifted my moderates status and I quit going to that forum after that because of that incident and it would have been a while before I would come back.

Because I have anxiety, it gets me and then I am afraid to do anything because I think someone is going to get upset again and I also may tend to avoid a person because I think they will get upset again. I wouldn't even be around my grandfather again because my dad's cousin told me I was selfish because my grandfather had heart problems and he could die of a heart attack if I upset him so I took it as if I get him upset again, he could die of a heart attack so never again I wanted to be around him because I was protecting him from death in case I got him upset again. I was 15. My mom was pretty mad when I told her after his death how I was always afraid of being around him because I didn't want him to die of a heart attack and she asked me "what?" and I said "well my dad's cousin told me if he died from a heart attack it would be my fault for upsetting him." I told her those may not have been her exact words but that was how I had interpreted it because she was screaming at me and calling me selfish because he had heart problems and he could die if he got upset. My mom wasn't mad at me, she felt mad at my dad's cousin for destroying my relationship with my grandfather and that explained why I never wanted to be at their house. So if anyone gets offended with my jokes or choices I make, etc, I then become afraid of them because I think I will upset them again and I act like they are so sensitive and fragile but I realize that is probably my anxiety. So it's like do not get upset with me and react badly or else my brain will think you're a dangerous situation That is what anxiety disorder is, the brain cannot tell between real danger and no danger so it tends to exaggerate.

Stampy there is nothing to fix , Britte will come back when she is ready , this is a support thread after all.

P.S. You are far from an idiot
P.P.S I however am a Doofus

Say something funny then, to make us all laugh

I really believed that my joke with the fake Stampy quote was clear, but I can understand why someone might wonder, with the anxiety and all. I hope Brit doesn't hold my comment against me.