Comorbidity Wishlist

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I wish I had histrionic personality disorder because then, for once in my life, I would be "lively, dramatic, vivacious, enthusiastic, and flirtatious".

I couldn't imagine being anything other than me as I am, to be honest. If you added or subtracted disorders then I would no longer be the same person, so it's sort of like wishing oneself out of existence.

Many people on here are outraged people would wish another disorder on themselves, especially bipolar. I don't feel outraged by this as people have a natural sense of curiosity, and bipolar does have a lot of grey areas in that for some people it can bring with it special talents/abilities they may not have had otherwise (a.k.a. in my case the intensity of the emotion I feel every day is often reflected in my creative work to my advantage), however the price is high, very high, I can't say if it is too high because again I see the bipolar as fundamentally a part of myself so without it I would cease to be - not so much a choice. I don't truly wish to be someone else no matter how bad my life gets or even at my lowest points, I only wish to be me as that is all I am and I cling to that as a sort of final defiance or last stand.

I also think it's pretty much impossible for anyone without bipolar to truly understand the ramifications of mania/hypo-mania (yes, hypomania too, I've screwed myself over big time due to periods of hypomania in many ways) so I understand why they may covert that state.

As offensive as this topic is I can relate to it. Lately in the past month I've had this intrusive desire to have another disorder. On an emotional and irrational level I have an overwhelming desire to have a psychotic disorder such as schizophrenia. In a more logical way I know I shouldn't want it but that doesn't make the emotional desire any less intense.

I wanted it so badly that I started depriving myself of sleep but when I accidently fell asleep on the couch downstairs trying to stay up my parents caught me.

I tried crushing up my brother's ritalin and snorting it through my nose the same way people do with cocaine but after testing the waters with one crushed up pill my parents found out and put a lock on the medicine cupboard.


I knew it wasn't going to work I just wanted a psychotic illness so badly that I was willing to try anything. If I stayed up long enough without falling asleep I would have at least gotten temporary symptoms and enough ritalin would have done that too but it wouldn't be permanent like I wanted it to be.


So yeah, psycosis is on my comorbid wishlist and I'm sorry if this post offends anyone it's just the way I feel.

I have Tourette's and Asperger's, people (even experts) say I show a lot of bipolar, shizophrenic, alexythemic and OCD traits, I am extremely paranoid and anxious, and NO, I don't want any other mental disorder, thank you. I also have synethesia, but that's not a real problem.

Sorry, but that's a very bizarre thing to me. I understand wanting a diagnosis for something in order to get treatment, but surely you don't want to have another disability on top of your AS?

I have a history of anxiety and depression. I'd rather I didn't have to deal with that on top of the AS (though I guess they're related in my case).

I don't even want the disorder I have right now......

I already got asperger, ADD(maybe) and OCD, not that I wish to... But I would certainly be interested to be comorbid with giftedness.

I'm lost as to why someone would want a co-morbid condition. I wish all I had was aspergers. I have co-morbid depression and anxiety. I've suffered greatly for most of my life with the depression. I have experienced "bipolar" symptoms with some medications wouldn't want that. I've had ECT for my depression, lost a year of my life with that, my long term memory wasn't wonderful prior to that and I would say it is less now. I'd prefer to just have an autism spectrum disorder without a co-morbid condition. I do like the idea of a sneeze inducing an orgasm however, that is likely a very rare and just and interesting case of synesthesia.

I'd trade hypergraphia for hyperlexia... Hyperlexia is useful, hypergraphia is really, really annoying...

I think most disorders suck when you actually have them.

I have Autism, a mood disorder, an undx Ticdisorder and Gender-Disphoria

For me, that's enough and when I also had a trauma and so on, I freaked out.

But hyperlexia and svant-syndrome would be nice, once in a while