gazinator1990 wrote:
Hello everyone. I have had trouble over the last year or so with major anxiety and panic attacks, and seem to have developed ocd. Not just the normal type, as in trouble with light switches, taps and cleaning, but in my head, I see myself doing horrible things to people, complete strangers or people I know, and the same sort of things to myself. For example, when I make coffee, I see myself pouring the water not into the cup, but onto my arm, and then feel a urge somewhere to actually carry out the act. The same happens when I hold cutnelery [not spelt right is it?] I see myself stabbing the fork into my eyeball, or using the knife to stab into my chest, which happens with the same sort of urge feeling. I often get so scared by it I have to stop eating for a few seconds whilst I tell myself it isnt really going to happen. Last example would be when I'm out in a pub or restaraunt, I look around at the people and feel the same urge to throw my glass or plate at completely innocent people sat by me, for no reason. I see myself doing it to and then imagine the after effects. Am I alone with this?
Actually that's typical OCD. What you are experiencing is the "obsessive" part of the disorder, more accurately called intrusive thoughts. The tapping, cleaning, trouble with light switches and so on is the compulsive part of the disorder, more accurately called compulsions or rituals, and the compulsions or rituals are usually done to rid one of unwanted intrusive thoughts or feelings.
02 Jul 2011, 4:51 pm
