Is this paranoia?

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I keep worrying that somehow something will end - whether that's my tenancy, people's sympathy, or sometimes even darker thoughts about getting stuck in an inevitable destiny that I'm going to be killed, and thereafter I feel as if many things just aren't worth it any more (mostly those that require effort) since I'm going to die anyway, soon (of course, everyone can say that but die in fifty years' time). Once I was terrified because this guy who I never talk to, and somewhat looks menacing started following me back home (thing was I lived in the same area). Until I finally stopped to look at some flowers or whatever they were, and he kept on going. That really fried my nerves for five minutes, though.

I keep telling psychiatrists that I'm only afflicted by depression, and since they always seem dumb anyway they won't know any better unless I explicitly say something. So I'm not sure if this is some form of self-denial, and perhaps I got bigger psychological problems than I thought.

This is exactly what I feel. I have no job and I'm living with my parents, and I worry that everything will go down the toilet tomorrow and they'll throw me out and I'll have nowhere to go. I worry that my relationship with my sister will fall apart, since she's the closest thing I have to a friend. I worry that everything I own will be destroyed. And so on.

"I keep worrying"

this sounds like myself.

am diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder, depression.

the keep worrying is not paranoia to me. the following part is sort of but could be chlaked up to anxiety.

definition - Paranoia is a thought process believed to be heavily influenced by anxiety or fear, often to the point of irrationality and delusion. Paranoid thinking typically includes persecutory beliefs concerning a perceived threat towards oneself

you do not seem to have long held persection beliefs, such as ppl out to get you 24/7, in some secret police database, cameras watching you etc.

to me sounds more like extreme general anxiety disorder, the impending doom and such.. which is hard to live with. there are meds for it. i studied many forms of relaxation and meditation, but full blown anxiety issues are not dealth with by "breath in, breath out" type of relaxation crap, that to me is more for a person who does not like their boss, or something more trivial then medical anxiety.

alanj.

sounds like anxiety to me.

No, it's more than "just" anxiety.

I have had problems with anxiety in my childhood and youth,
but I never had fears like the ones these guys describe.
In fact I'll say I was the opposite: I envisioned such 'catastro-
phies' with excitement, I wanted such things to happen!

I know what you guys describe relates to some form of
disorder, but the actual name escapes me at the moment. I'm
sure it can be looked up, because your symptoms are actually
very classic.

It sounds to me like you are suffering from depression as well as perhaps Generalized Anxiety Disorder. Worrying about everyday things is normal, functional even, but when it starts interfering with your faily life or if the worrying is completely disproportionate to the source of worry, it becomes abnormal. Perhaps read up about it? You don't have to take my word on it, obviously I don't know you nearly well enough to stick a diagnosis on you, but GAD is treatable and it could perhaps lift some weight off your shoulders. I wouldn't call it paranoia, though - somebody who looks scary and follows you around is actually a pretty unnerving experience. If you were constantly convinced that somebody was following you or tracking your movements, then you might be exhibiting paranoid behaviour.