GreySun369 wrote:
cathylynn wrote:
i think you hit the nail on the head. it's probably to do with the relationship you have with your mother.
I guess you're right. Maybe the real problem with me is the relationship I have with my mother and that's what I should focus on. I think it's damaged me in a lot of ways having to deal with the stuff she's put me through since childhood. I want to talk to a doctor about it but I'm afraid that if I reveal all the stuff she's done to me that he will tell me I need to confront her about it, and I honestly feel that I would rather die than ever tell her what I really think of her.
maybe you can find a way to talk to your mom that respects both you and her. you know, the assertive style - "i felt _______ when you _______." you don't have to say that you hate her or call her names, but it's totally fair and self-esteem-promoting to let others know how you'd like to be treated.
just because i or your psychiatrist thinks you should confront your mom doesn't mean you have to. you know best what is safe and comfortable for you. getting your feelings off your chest, either here or with a psychiatrist or both, is positive, even if you never take any other action about the situation.