"grandiose" ideas i get just because of my bipolar

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like auditioning for american idol this up and coming season, especially knowing I have a voice teacher who might be more capable of helping me improve my vocal and performing skills. my mom was really taunting me about it all night--the last night of the season of course--but it did give me a guilt trip that's lasting and driving me crazy like, what's the big deal? I have a drive, I have an ambition, maybe it's a wake up call not to make it a reality but in my mind you just never know so...

what's everyone's opinion? anyone else from my generation (i'm 22) feel kept from the freedom to follow their ambitions?

I think you should be careful those programmes love to mock anyone or anything different. Or at least they do here in the UK.

Ha ha, I was manic during the last summer olympics and I was convinced I was going to be the next olympic gold winner on the trampoline. I'm not athletic in the slightest.

I get grandiose thoughts when I am manic. I think I am going to be the next big artist and be famous worldwide. I think I am going to change the world for the positive. I think I am going to make hundreds of millions of dollars a year. Yeah, those are my delusions when I am manic. Weird though my art is starting to take off. This month alone I made close to $800 just to do what I want with it. I have people trying to help me get famous in real life. I sold 2 originals and many, many prints.

when I was last manic I was busking in the city with an electric guitar....







....with no amp!

my manic thoughts include a desire to be a know-it-all and have-it-all.

My manic thoughts have been stable for quite a few years now, but I still get them to a minor degree but I enjoy it because I write and I really want to get some of my books out there and I also did a lot of drama whenever I managed to go to school so I'd like to take some classes with that and give it a shot, especially since they shot Brokeback Mountain, Assassination of Jesse James, and the Fortress snow scene of Inception at the place I used to snowboard at, and lots of big films (Man of Steel) are shooting in Vancouver. So, yeah, grandiose, but to me it's still possible, just to even give it a shot, whether it works out or not. I think the manic mode can be beneficial if kept in check cause you can chase your dreams even if you're older and you don't feel that it's not possible to do.

There can only be one American Idol.