mood swings and trauma

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I have a trauma since nearly two years, but it's getting better now.

My problem is, that I have heavy mood shifts again.

Yesterday evening I did a mania and a depression test at the same time.
The result was:

Goldberg Mania Questionnaire Answers
Total score of 21
(18-21, Borderline Mania)

Goldberg Depression Questionnaire Answers
Total score of 15
(10-17, Possibly Mildly Depressed)

I also had before the trauma mood shifts, but now they get worse.
So I have real problems to tell WHAT they are!?

Are they "just" part of autism and depression?
Are they part of autism and depression in combination with a trauma?
Or are they part of bipolar and now a bit more diffuse because of a trauma?

How do I find out?

I would definitely go see a psychiatrist. Stress is a known factor in the onset of bipolar episodes or the worsening of bipolar mood swings. And if you are scoring in clinical ranges for both (hypo)mania and depression at the same time, that doesn't mean that the scores are wacky and contradictory. Mixed episodes are a combination of both mania and depression at the same time, a mixture of symptoms. And it has now been identified that a person can have a depressive episode with subthreshold (hypo)mania symptoms or a (hypo)manic episode with subthreshold depressive symptoms. Symptoms of both mood poles don't have to both reach the magnitude needed for a mixed episode. The only way you can learn more if your mood swings really are a form of bipolar disorder or subthreshold bipolar disorder "red flags" is to get evaluated by a professional. The nitty-gritty details of whether mood swings are bipolar in nature or not are extremely complex and hard to tease out, so sitting down with an expert would be best.

I have a psychiatrist and I'm there since a 3/4 year, were I was nearly depressed all the time, but last time my mood started to shift again and

she: "oh, you really look better, what happend?"
I: "actually I'm mixed."
she surprised: "mixed?"
I: "yeah"

She toled me I look a lot more stable and was totally surprised.
But I think my mood started to shift again in some mixed crap.

Well, I should tell her, right now she is in vacation, but I have an appontment for the august 31st.

I even did a borderline-test, eventhough I really don't think I have it and I scored with:
You scored a total of 14
0 -14 unlikely
15 - 19 possible
20 - 32 likely
33 & up severe

What I had positive on the test was:
- mood shifts and anger
- problems in my life that impact me
- one suicide attempt two years ago

I have mood shifts since I'm 14 years old and in this time my mom thought that I'm bipolar, but I allways sayd: "no", because the depressions were deffinitly my mainproblem. I'm diagnosed with depressions.
Now I really think I could be bipolar II.
I know I scored close to manic, but I was never "out of controll-manic" and most of the time with the positive feelings, I was mixed, but this has a lot to do with the trauma.
But since the trauma it just got more sever so that I have sometimes huge troubles to handle it.
My problem is in identifying the mood swing correctly is, that also people on the autistic spectrum in general have mood swings.

What else could it be?

Too much testing, stop.

School is out. You're making yourself nuts with all that s**t. Stop.

I did too, all the time trying to remember what to tell the shrink, stop now. We know we have a problem, let them do thier job, why we got them in the first place. I just don't worry about that part anymore and I know it is easier said then done, god do I know it. Give yourself a break, you deserve it and I know you do.

Yes, well that's true.

I have WAY TOO MUCH stress at the moment, because the trauma is two years ago in a view days and allreay last year I had a crysis at this time.
This year it's a bit better, but still heavy.