So, I had a "schizophrenic" thought today...

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Alright, before you go bashing me for using the word schizophrenic as a casual adjective, let me explain myself.
I did have some cognitive processing going on that was characteristic of a schizotypical mindset. And these aren't usual, or at least I caught it this time.

I'm not schizophrenic.

However, I do have OCD and am paranoid about many things. So, today, I tied up my bike at the bike rack. I came back and undid the combination so that I could leave, and counted it out under my breath (out loud, but under my breath).

All the sudden I was terrified that the metal post was bugged, and that a microphone would pick up my bike's combination and record it for next time, so that someone could steal it.
What was scary is that, for a few seconds, I really believed it and considered changing my combination or never parking there again.

Something slapped me out of it and I realized what I was thinking and did my best to leave and not act on that thought.

Is this a bad sign? I KNOW I'm oversimplifying things, but it caught me this time...

Is there a mental health professional you can talk to about this sort of thing? Or, at least, a supportive person?

As soon as I get a appt. with my therapist....

Sounds normal. You're not Schizophrenic.

I agree.

Bad? Sign? Might be, if it happens in others senses less obvious to yourself and then, "bad", is subjective.

I call it, my brain getting loud. I can't explain it, other then, I know I have to be aware some s**t is happening in my head. Change is happening in some sense. I hunker down,, am a bit more aware of my actions and yes, sometimes I can't stop them. But ya, BP and that S word do relate, in thinking.

Ain't the end of the earth, just a different twist to finally understand things better.

If you have pure obsessional OCD and know that the thoughts are illogical (after your panic clears), this is typical. There is a lot in common between pure "O" obsessions and schizophrenic delusions. The big difference is, of course, that OCD is not a psychosis, whereas schizophrenia IS. I have lots of "paranoid" obsessions about personal safety and such. Why am I not schizophrenic? Because I know these thoughts are ridiculous and illogical, despite being scared by the very notion that they COULD be real. Several studies have found an increased amount of schizotypal traits in people with pure "O" OCD. Why else would we be the type of OCD that has "magical thinking" and superstitious compulsions?

It's just a thought. You don't need to be concerned.